Thursday, December 24, 2015

Is Jesus the God of the Old Testament?

For the first time in my entire memory, a few months ago, that is exactly what was taught at Sunday School.  That Jesus is the God of the Old Testament.  Which made me do a double take.  Wait, What?!  My Entire Life I was taught that Jesus was a Separate Person from God, that God is Heavenly Father, the Father of all Humanity.  That when the Bible Talks about God it's the Same God in the Old Testament and the New Testament.  But this totally contradicts that.

Logic, people, Logic, this has none.  So when Jesus was a boy and Mary and Joseph lost track of him and found him at the Temple, and he said he was at His Father's House, what he Really meant was he was at HIS House.  Since the Temple was built to worship the Old Testament God, and Jesus is that self same God.  Right?!

And when he was an adult and went to the Temple and overturned the tables of the money changers in anger, that wasn't him being upset about how people were treating the sacred stuff of His Father, no, that was God Himself showing His Wrath, just in Human form.

Ah, but since I have been Taught my whole life that the God we worship today is Not Jesus, then we are worshiping an entirely New God, one not at all the same God as the Old Testament God.  So when Jesus bled and stuff in the Garden of Gethsemane and prayed and begged "God" to take away the bitter cup, he wasn't praying to Himself, no, he was praying to the Higher God that He serves and wants us to worship and serve.

So the Old Testament God is Jehova, and the New Testament God is Yahweh.  The two are Father and Son, very similar, but not the same person.  Two Gods.  The God of everything Before Jesus' Mortal birth and ministry, and the God of the stuff during and after that.

I feel like banging my head on a keyboard, every day, for the rest of my life.

Monday, December 7, 2015

Anti-feminism Serves the Misandrists

I am a Feminist, the DICTIONARY Definition, the Original Egalitarian movement.  When you Hate All Feminists you hate me.  Whether you realize it or not, you are hurting me.  And you are Letting the Misandrists Win!  Just because there are Misandrists CLAIMING to be Feminists, that doesn't mean they are correct.  They are NOT!

I'm an Intactivist.  Intactivism is about Gender Equality for Babies and Children, equal rights!  His Body, His Rights, Her Body, Her Rights!  Fellow Intactivists, how would you like it if Misogynists (men who hate women) Took over Intactivism, making the general populace think that All Intactivists hate women?

When a Misogynist says they are an Intactivist then spews misogynist hatred, will you abandon intactivism and tell everyone you aren't an intactivist because you don't hate women? Hmm?  It's the same exact damn thing with Feminism and Misandrists taking over the definition!

Full Definition of feminism

  1. 1:  the theory of the political, economic, and social equality of the sexes
  2. 2:  organized activity on behalf of women's rights and interests


noun mis·an·dry  \ˈmi-ˌsan-drē\

Definition of misandry

  1. :  a hatred of men

LEARN!  Stop letting the Misandrists win!  Knock it off!  Fact Trumps Opinion!  Every single supposed example of "feminists" hating men is nothing more than examples of MISANDRISTS Falsely claiming to be feminists!  Stop being Stupid!

Here is a fact that Both the Misandrists And anti-feminists who bought their lie, hook, line, and sinker, are Totally Missing. If it were not for the fact that MEN joined the Original Feminism movement and helped fight for gender equality, it never would have happened. Men ruled the world. Men had it all, women had nothing. No power, no political clout, no economic leverage, no property ownership, nothing. If not for MEN seeing how wrong that is and helping to gain equal rights for women, they would still be totally subjugated under Actual Patriarchal rule. Stop hating men, Stop hating Feminists. Focus, instead, on defeating hatred and injustice.

Just like Slavery and Civil Rights for All would never have happened if not for White people realizing how wrong racism is and helping to fight against it until it was largely defeated. If not for people like ME Obama never could have become a Senator let alone a President. I may not agree with him and I voted for someone else, but that is not due to racism, it’s due to simply not agreeing with the man. That’s all.

Are we non-racists going to allow anti-white racists to take over the definition of Civil Rights Activism? I sure as hell won’t.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

Will I stay or will I go?

********If you don't want to know me, Really know me, the Whole Truth, stop reading right now and go back to your comfortable ignorance.********

Will you stay or will you go?  That is the question asked today at Stake Conference in the broadcast from Salt Lake, which I Think was sent to all the Stake and Ward buildings worldwide.  At this point I don't know whether I will stay or go.  I am in great emotional turmoil right now.  I'm struggling with suicidal thoughts.  Even though I know that my suicide would be terribly painful psychologically to my family and close friends.  In fact, that's what really keeps me alive, knowing that giving up would hurt everyone, especially my parents.

Why don't I know whether I will stay or go?  Why am I suffering this turmoil?  Because I'm a Libertarian and my Church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, has been progressively moving against Liberty, more specifically against the LGBT community.  I love my Church, the people in my Ward, and my Family.  Leaving the Church would be like being torn away from my Family.  It would hurt a great deal emotionally, and I don't know if my unstable mind could handle that.  I'm quite sure that a trauma that I can't handle will cause me to commit suicide.  It will push me over the ledge upon which I stand so precariously right now.

I'm a Libertarian BECAUSE of my great love for others, because I'm an Empath.  I do not like it when I see people harming others, and I react with anger.  I have lived my entire life trying to defend the defenseless, help the helpless, and use whatever strength I may have to strengthen the weak.  The Core of my beliefs, from which everything else branches out, is First Do No Harm.  THAT is the very first thing.  My Belief in God, Jesus Christ, The Holy Ghost, The Prophet Joseph Smith, The Book of Mormon, etc., all come Second.  They may be a very Close second, but they Are Second only to that core belief.  I will Never use God as an excuse to harm others, Never!  I would rather die in as long and painful a way as possible than support harm or cause harm.  KNOW this about me.

I'm also a Feminist, the Original Actual movement which is Egalitarian, NOT Misandry.  I'm sick and tired of the evil Man Haters (Misandrists) taking over the definition and causing Men to Hate Feminism.  That's exactly what they want!  That way they can use Men's anger and hate against them, claiming that it's hate against All Women (Misogyny).  I'm neither a Misogynist Nor a Misandrist.  I reject them both!

I have a temper, though.  I get really angry sometimes, so angry I lose all sane thought.  That is frightening to me.  I don't want to, but how do I contain the rage?  It's so hard.  So I have hurt people because of the words I said to them in anger.  I am guilty of sinning against my core because of my terrible temper.

I am experiencing a crisis of Faith.  Not in God, but in the Church.  I feel like I'm being torn apart.  I want to just ignore everything, ignore the pain, and distract myself with unimportant things like video games.  Escape the painful reality.  It's what I've always done when reality becomes too hard for me.  Books.  Games.  TV.  Movies.  Anything.  Anything but facing the pain.

This is the truth, the whole truth, nothing but the truth.  No lies.  No deception.  The veil is lifted.  My soul is laid bare.  This is my confession, all the secrets I've been keeping for so long:  I masturbate, I will not stop masturbating unless I fall in love and get married.  I'm a Nudist, I will not stop being a Nudist.  I'm an Intactivist, I will not stop being an Intactivist.  I'm Bisexual, though I've never had sexual relations with anyone, I have felt sexual attraction to both males, and females.  I also agree with the "Ordain Women" movement.

Are you interested at all in learning why?  Do you dare delve into the depths of my soul to gain true understanding of me?  Don't judge me, I beg you, for sinning differently than you do.  I'll try to not judge you either.

In conclusion, I'm a sinner, I know it, and I know that I have no right to judge anyone else for their sins.  For now I'm not leaving the Church, but I don't know what will be the straw that breaks the Camel's back.  I don't know if I'm going to be declared an Apostate for merely disagreeing with the Leadership, and be excommunicated.  If that happens it will be devastating.  That's it.  If you are reading this and I'm dead, now you know exactly what's been going on in my head.  Take care and God Bless you.

Sunday, June 14, 2015

Were you taught PEMDAS or BODMAS?

Either way, you were taught the Order of Operations.  I've been trying to educate people on Facebook math threads for over a year now, with limited success.  For instance, on a math thread that asks you to solve 40+40*0+1 most people think it's 1.  That is incorrect.

The Order of Operations, whether it's described by PEMDAS, BODMAS, or any other acronym, clearly states that you must do the Multiplication and Division Left To Right before Addition and Subtraction, also Left To Right.  Therefore in the above example you multiply 40*0 first, giving you 0, not 40.  Then addition, which is actually Summation of Positive and Negative Numbers, 40+0+1=41.

If your teacher taught you that Multiplication must be done before Division, or vice versa, please, smack them for me.  If they also taught that addition must be done before subtraction, smack them twice please.

Here is an example of when Parentheses actually are used to change the usual Order of Operations: 20/2(5+5).  First you solve the contents of the Parentheses, 5+5=10, then you do the Multiplication and Division left to right, 20/2=10, 10*10=100.  Also, All Divisions are Fractions, a Number Over Another Number, and cannot be reversed.  1/2 is NOT 2/1.  So when you multiply a Fraction against a Whole Number you are multiplying the Entire Fraction, not just part of it.  When multiplying a Fraction against a Whole Number you must convert the Whole Number into a Fraction.  So 20/2*10=20/2*10/1, 20*10=200, 2*1=2, 200/2=100.

The facts are plain and simple.  Multiplication was invented centuries ago as a shortcut for lots of additions and therefore has Always had precedence over addition since its invention way before anyone alive today was born.  It is NOT new math, it is not unique to Common Core curricula, and you are Not "Old School" if you don't remember being taught how to do math properly.  Exponents were invented as a shortcut to do lots of multiplications and therefore have Always had precedence over Multiplication since they were invented.  Parentheses and other Grouping Symbols have Always had precedence over everything else in order to Override the usual Order of Operations for simplification reasons.  Like 20/2*5+20/2*5 is Simplified by writing 20/2(5+5).

Oh, and it should not bear repeating, but I still do all the time on these math threads:  Anything times 0 is 0.  Always has been, always will be.  Multiplication by 0 is just an easier way of removing a value than applying the exact opposite value.  1-1=0, -1+1=0, 1*0=0.  It is very useful in programming, computers use Binary, 1s and 0s, to do everything, on and off, this is yes, that is no.  Is there an elephant standing in my room?  The answer is no, there are 0 elephants standing in my room.  Elephant times 0= the number of elephants standing in my room.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Does God Punish us?

This is just my opinion/belief, not provable or proven facts, so take it all with a few giant grains of salt.

I don't think God Punishes us, like "Obey or I smack you!".  I think he is more like a well-spring of Light, Wisdom, Knowledge, Love, Creativity, and Blessings.  And when we turn away from Him, it is like turning off a light in an otherwise pitch dark room.  If you do that, then stumble into a table and hurt yourself, do you then claim that the light you turned off is punishing you?

I think God created this natural universe to have natural consequences, then put us here to experience things.  We don't always understand why we are experiencing something we don't want to experience.  We suffer.  We have sorrow.  There is a reason this existence is called the Vale of Tears.  I think God wants to help us as much as we will allow him to, but will only intervene when we allow him to, and when it is going to help us learn something important.

The existence without pain, without suffering, and without sorrow is what we all had before we came here.  It was not an educational environment, we couldn't possibly learn what we need to in order to become Gods ourselves.  We Chose to come here, knowing full well how hard it would be, in order to gain what we need to become just like our Creator.

You are going through what you need to experience, what you Chose to experience in the pre-mortal existence, it is not God's fault.  If God intervened in order to make it so Good people Only experience good things, and Bad people Only experience bad things, everyone, all of us, would stop learning what we came here to learn.  We would stop learning things like Empathy and Compassion for others.  Things like Unconditional Love, acceptance of imperfections in others, would simply never exist.

If you have been abused, horribly, I'm sorry.  I wish it hadn't happened, but hopefully, somehow, something good will come of your experience.  Like, wanting to help others who have been similarly abused.  Being a supportive friend, a shoulder to lean on.  If you had never gone through that, do you believe you would feel what you do now for others going through those things?

Peace to you.