Krepta's Life

Moses and stuff

2011-03-20T17:22:00.001-07:00

I don't quite know how to describe my feelings and thoughts about what I've read in Exodus, but I'm going to put down the actual verses I have a problem with, and see how things emerge from my confusing mind.

Exodus 32:27-29

27 And he said unto them, Thus saith the Lord God of Israel, Put every man his sword by his side, and go in and out from gate to gate throughout the camp, and ^aslay every man his brother, and every man his companion, and every man his neighbour.
28 And the children of Levi did according to the word of Moses: and there fell of the people that day about three thousand men.
29 For Moses had said, ^aConsecrate yourselves to day to the Lord, even every man upon his ^bson, and upon his brother; that he may bestow upon you a ^cblessing this day.

O.o and, WTF?! And AHHH!! OMG too! I am shocked, and bewildered, I never Ever heard about this in Sunday School at Church, no one ever mentions it. People talk all the time about how Moses came down from the mountain with the commandments, saw the golden calf that everyone was worshiping, got mad at everybody, threw the stone tablets, destroyed the golden calf, and went back up the mountain again to get a new set written out. First of all, it was stupid to get mad and destroy the commandments GOD HIMSELF wrote down on stone with his own Godly finger. And it must have taken bawlz to walk up that mountain again to ask for another set. But this here, commanding his people to slaughter each other?! That is extremely disturbing to me. I can barely find words to explain what I'm thinking. Just.... ufdah, that hurts my head.

So, uhm.... ok, I gotta say, I really really don't like this God guy, this guy makes me mad. and you know what, earlier he had to be convinced to "repent" and not do the "evil" he was thinking of doing. Here, I'll show you.

Exodus 32:12-14

12 Wherefore should the ^aEgyptians speak, and say, For mischief did he bring them out, to slay them in the mountains, and to consume them from the face of the earth? Turn from thy fierce wrath, ^band ^crepent of this evil against thy people.
13 Remember ^aAbraham, Isaac, and Israel, thy servants, to whom thou ^bswarest by thine own self, and saidst unto them, I will ^cmultiply your ^dseed as the stars of heaven, and all this ^eland that I have spoken of will I give unto your seed, and they shall inherit it for ever.
14^aAnd the Lord ^brepented of the evil which he thought to do unto his people.

And that's not the only place in the Bible where it talks about God Repenting, there is also the big Flood thing, where God is so sad about flooding and drowning most of the people on earth that he Repented and set a rainbow in the sky as a sign that he would never do that again. Great. Thanks dude. I like rainbows, and I like knowing we aren't going to go through a global flood that kills everybody. Nice. But, wow, I really don't like the mean and nasty God of the Old Testament at all.

I mean, why would I follow a bully like that? Do what I say, or I smash you to bits?! I'd say, go right ahead and smash away, fraker! I'm not saying I like pain and suffering, I'm just bull headed when it comes to bullies who expect blind obedience, Just cause they can wipe the floor with me any time they want. No way, not gonna happen. I'm also of the strong mindset that if someone tries to threaten me, or my family and friends, in order to make me do something I am strongly morally opposed to, I'd tell them off and say goodbye to my dear friends and family. There is no way in this life time I am going to betray my principles and bow down to bullies. I've had more than enough bullying in my life, I'm sick to my stomach of it, and I won't budge.

If you give me a choice between doing something I am totally opposed to, or death, I'll pick death, thanks. If that makes me brave, whatever. Stubborn is more like it. If God himself told me to put my son, which I don't have yet, up on a stone alter and stab him to death as a sacrifice, I'd say Screw you, not gonna happen! If he struck me with lightning for my disobedience I'd go to the afterlife ticked off at him, but pretty happy with my choice anyway. And that's just how it is. I will not be the coward, the push over, the guy that no one can depend on for anything. I will stand and be smashed to bits, and be glad I did it.

Anyway, I'm rambling a lot I guess. Time to go watch TV and stop thinking so much about this stuff.

Mad Dictator

2011-02-27T21:41:00.001-07:00

I have often wondered, even dreamed, about being a King or something, someone who has the huge weight of power and responsibility for an entire country on his shoulders. Would power go to my head, corrupt me, turn me into a monster? Would it drive me insane? That's, I think, a risk for Anyone who has power like that. That's why I like Republics that democratically elect their leaders, and always bring in a new leader after a certain amount of time, like 4 years or something.

But maybe the best person to govern is someone who neither Knows, nor Cares, that they have all that power, such as a lone crazy guy on an island in the middle of nowhere who talks to himself, and receives occasional visits from government people needing him to make important decisions about stuff. Like in Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy. I love that series! I'm serious though, what if the "Leader" of a nation is really just for show, just a buffoon for people to hate or love, a front, a decoy, and the Real power resides with someone who absolutely does Not Want that power, and doesn't realize they have it? I'm thinking the best possible person to have that kind of power is someone who doesn't want it in the first place, and couldn't care less if they lose it and would probably hand it over to someone else if they had half a chance.

So, my question about what I would do if I had that kind of power is pretty serious. I'm not exactly the most balanced person. I doubt my temper would win many allies. Heck, I'd probably tick off the entire world at least on a monthly basis, just because things are too stale and I feel like shaking things up.

What would You do if you had that kind of power, the power of an absolute Dictator that everyone must obey, even if you are a really nice person? Would you give everyone the kinds of freedoms that are enjoyed in Democratic nations? Would you let people hold elections and choose their leaders, and step down from power? Or would you become a figurehead for everyone to adore, like the British Royal Family? Those people really do take their role in society very seriously, even if they do lack the absolute dictatorial power they once had.

The reason I'm posting this, really, is, Clearly Gaddafi is a mad hatter, which makes me wonder what drugs he's on, or what kind of serious mental illness he was basically born with and never treated for. Either power went to his head and drove him insane, or something was very wrong with him long before that.

Is there something already wrong with me that I could crack and go completely off the deep end if I ever attained that kind of power? Maybe. In which case, I should stay away from that kind of stress, for my own good, and the good of everyone else, yah? Well, it's not like I'd ever have the chance to be in that kind of situation anyway.

What if there was some kind of automated system to choose a random citizen of the country, and a group of people would carefully, secretly, insinuate themselves into this person's life, never letting them know they have been chosen to be the Ruler, for one period of, say, 2 years or something. And for that entire time those secret agents carefully get to know this person, asking this person their opinion on a range of different things, hypothetical situations and such. Never letting them absolutely know exactly what is going on. Kind of like Ender's Game, I love that series too!! And the "President" of the country is just the front man, a highly paid decoy, to stand in the lime light and receive all the praises or ridicule, to be the target of rage and stupidity, while the Real decisions are made by someone who has no idea at all that they have that kind of power.

Then at the end of the two years, slowly the various secret agents figure out ways to extract themselves from this person's life, move away, lose touch, etc. And a new random citizen is chosen automatically to be The secret leader of the nation, so secret they don't even know themselves. What if such a system could be set up? Would the horrible problems with abuse of power finally be defeated? Would the kind of corruption that infects governments all over the world finally be overcome? I dunno, but I am really liking the idea the more I think about it.

Who do you think you are?

2011-02-19T22:11:00.001-07:00

I've heard people ask that many times, but upon pondering the answer I would give, I am having a hard time coming up with a good answer. I mean, after all, Who Am I? Am I Aaron Ingebrigtsen? I mean, that's just a name, a label, it might as well be a number, like 7. By the way, do you know who 7 of 9 is? If you are a Star Trek fan, you know who I'm talking about. If not, you can remain baffled till you go look it up or something.

Who am I? Is there a short explanation that really fits? Libertarian, to a point, LDS all my life, poofy haired crazy nut? Naw, guess you'll just have to settle for a Label to file me under in your mind, then add data to the file as you get to know me. So, when someone asks me who I think I am, what do I say? Do I say, "Uhh... Aaron." O.o Aaron who? Well, I'm still trying to figure that out I guess. Does anyone really KNOW everything they could ever possibly know about themselves, and therefore really Know who they are?

I guess I have these moments of deep perplexity, about the universe, people in general, and myself. Hope you enjoyed the ride. So, I'm Aaron, that's who I am, if you don't know anything else at all, too bad, guess you gotta choose to either work at getting to know me, or shrug your shoulders and ignore me.

Doo dee doo dee dooo, I want Taquitos!! :P

Is Alternative Energy a Myth?

2011-02-17T17:21:00.005-07:00

Last night while listening to Coast to Coast AM the guest talked about a lot of things, but one thing he kept saying drowned out everything else, for me. He kept repeating that Alternative Energy is a Myth. I could not disagree more strongly. I was so mad last night I actually wound up going to bed with a nasty migraine. I've seen so many great ideas, online, on youtube, and on TV, on PBS Nova, and Discovery Channel, that are fully capable of one day completely replacing all the nasty polluting energy systems we use today.

One of my favorite alternatives is the MDI Compressed Air Powered Car, I would love to get one of those and never have to buy another gallon of gasoline again! Years ago I had an idea that a house could be powered entirely by compressed air, through underground pipes. If the pipes burst, what harm would it cause? So a bunch of compressed air pops, and a bunch of dirt goes flying, big deal. That's not nearly as bad as the fires caused by natural gas pipes exploding, and electrical transformers and wires getting destroyed and blown around by storms and overloads. And if too many systems try using the compressed air being provided, that would just reduce the air pressure a bit more than usual, rather than overload equipment, overheat transformers, and cause whole system outages.

My idea for generating the compressed air for homes doesn't involve a compressor and big tanks, like what you would probably think of. My idea involves big weights and giant tubes, with a machine that lifts the weights when they reach the bottom of the tube. The more tubes, the more constant the system's pressure can be, even if there is a slight power outage. Because taking pressure from the system to provide power to homes would be purely mechanical. If there is a Sudden drop in pressure due to a break, a burst pipe or something, a computer can sense that and instantly shut off the affected part of the system. Rather than a cascade failure shutting down the Entire system. The weights and tubes would be kind of like really big pistons in an engine. And raising the weights would be done by turning, ratcheting them up, not using cables. But, then again, maybe current Elevator technology can be adapted to do the work, they have a pretty robust cable system.

We already use pressurized water for every building in a city, it's how you get water out of your tap at the kitchen sink, or the hose in the front yard. So, I was thinking, what if every house had a turbine at the water main that feeds to that house, converting that water movement into electricity, storing it in a battery that would provide at least a short backup for when the grid goes down. Why not, it's going to move through that pipe anyway, right?

As far as Wind generation goes, I really do not like the big long bladed turbines, they are very inefficient, very dangerous, have to be turned into the wind to work, etc. But there are far more efficient designs I really like. There is one that looks like a helix, it grabs wind from All directions, and converts it very efficiently, without causing a lot of danger for things like birds. Also there is the kind of wind generator that takes it's idea from swaying trees. When wind blows these things, they sway, in any direction the wind blows, and the swaying itself generates power at it's base. I love that idea!

I really like ocean wave generators, they look like connected tanks floating out on the ocean, and the slightest motion can cause them to change their angle, which then forces hydrolic fluids through turbines, which in turn generate power. I love that. There are so many places out on the open ocean that would be Great wave farms!

As for solar, I've seen on PBS and Discovery Channel that exciting new means of capturing the sun's energy are being used right now, that are far cheaper and better than photovoltaic cells we are used to. For instance, we can capture CO2, and the Sun's energy, to produce algae that can then be easily turned into fuel, and lubricants, and maybe even bio-plastics! There is a new kind of paint that turns sunlight into electricity too, it's absolutely amazing. You could put a coat of this stuff all over your house! There are paper thin sheets of stuff being made that is several times more efficient at turning sunlight into electricity than normal photovoltaic cells!

Alternative energy is NOT a myth. We do NOT need to build giant generator plants, and plug them into the grid we all depend on. We can provide every house, every building, with all they need to get completely Off the grid. The major hurdle to doing that is Cost. Each owner of a home, or business, would have to be able to purchase these things, or at least put in the major part of the investment.

But if it's a giant power plant you want, there are new plants being built that can turn all kinds of garbage and industrial waste into electricity, while recycling 100% of the material into pure, separated chemicals and material that can then be used to manufacture new things. Instead of dumping everything into a giant pit in the ground, allowing the nastier stuff to leach into the soil, and water supply. And the power plant does not pollute at all, absolutely Everything gets turned into purified materials to be used for new manufacturing, or processing, or whatever. Imagine your entire car can be recycled, 100% of it, while at the same time generating enough power to run your house for a week, or something. I think it is called a Plasma Reactor, but I could have something mixed up in my head.

And apparently we are close to getting widespread Cold Fusion, which has excited and intrigued scientists for a long time now.

Have you heard of the amazing Bloom Box? These amazing thin sheets that are really really efficient at turning natural gas into electricity. Fuel Cell technology is absolutely wonderful, it can transform hydrogen and oxygen into water, and produce electricity in the process.

We have the technology to CREATE pure water, the ability to take any water source, no matter how nasty, turn it into pure Hydrogen and Oxygen, then turn that back into Water, add a bit of minerals for taste, and you've got perfect, pure water. I love the idea of Water as Fuel, this guy invented a technology that separates water into Hydrogen and Oxygen gas, without the massive amounts of electricity for normal electrolysis, by employing Frequency manipulation. The molecules can be Vibrated apart. Then the gas can be recombined in a combustion engine, and burned, just like gasoline, producing more electrical energy than is needed to continue splitting more water into gas. Thus as long as you have plenty of water, you can generate lots of energy!

And one of my favorites for a long time now is Magnet Motor generators, I've seen so many examples on Youtube of these amazing devices, spinning at a very high RPM, which would provide a lot of electrical energy without any fuel. And don't tell me how impossible it is, that you can't get something for nothing. Magnetic force is itself a form of energy! This is nothing more than converting one form of energy into another form, just like allowing the completely natural nuclear decay of radioactive material to heat water, which then turns turbines, or allowing hydrogen molecules to combine with oxygen in a fuel cell, thus making electricity in the process. It is real, it works, and the law of the conservation of energy does not make it impossible. If this method of making electricity is incompatible with the law of conservation, than that law is wrong, or flawed, in the first place. Take off the blinders and see reality!

The world we live in is full of abundant energy. Even if the idea of Abiotic Oil is true, even if there is WAY more oil underground than we've been told by the big oil corporations, I still think it's a good idea to get off our dependence on oil as fuel. I still think there are too many pollutants, and terrible ecological risks, attached to oil.

I don't think Global Warming is caused solely by mankind, I think it's part of a cycle, something we can't stop. I do think it is happening, and I don't think we are about to get into a new Ice Age unless Global Warming actually triggers it. I do think we are doing bad things to this planet, and we must stop that. By not continuing to do nasty things to our planet. Not by forcing people to pay a Carbon Tax. Maybe we are addicted to energy, in the US, and the Western World. But, you know what, I don't think energy use itself is what is wrong with this planet, it's what we do to transform available resources into electricity. Back before electricity became so widespread, it was seen as the thing that could Save people from the horrible ecological problems caused by Coal burning, wood burning, and gas burning, to provide the heat and light everyone needed. We've all used energy, in one form or another, since we first figured out Fire!

I do not advocate people reducing power usage to pre-industrial levels, all around the world. I would prefer that people switch to clean, renewable, energy. Energy is not our enemy. Pollution is. Local pollution causes illness, and big areas of pollution can cause changes in weather, that are unpleasant, even damaging. Pollution can be dust, smoke, nasty gasses, acid rain, etc. We need to reduce, as much as possible, the pollution we create, in all areas of our lives, as individuals, nations, and the world.

Still Unemployed

2011-02-15T01:59:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm still Unemployed. So much has happened in the past year. Ups, downs, and zigzags. Many people have told me that I write really well, that I'm very smart, and that I could really do a lot of good, and maybe make some money while I'm at it. Could I actually be a Blogger, like what CNN and Fox look at?! Well, maybe, maybe not.

I think I could say a lot about a lot of things, and maybe a lot of people would listen and like what I have to say. I'm all over Facebook and stuff, lots of discussions. Maybe if you like what you see, you could donate something to me. I no longer accept USD online, since I no longer wish to use evil Banks, or the stupid PayPal. Instead, please see the bottom of this page to send me Bitcoins. I love Bitcoins! I found out about it while on my search for alternatives to the things that control us. I am trying to break out of the box, always, it's my path in life I guess.

So, what happened in the year and more since my last post? Well, I did a lot of hard work on my knees, lots of physical therapy at 360 Physical Therapy, with my absolutely favorite PT, Nikki Czekaj, she is just so much fun to be around! :) Eventually I finally managed to convince AHCCCS to allow me to get knee surgery, which my knee doctor said was necessary, and would probably do a lot of good for me. Unfortunately, recovery was much harder for me than most people, and I still really haven't fully recovered. It's really nice that I haven't dislocated that kneecap since. :) It hurt a lot, you gotta believe me, surgery really sucks!!

So, that's what has really kept me busy, there is no way I could have done all that physical therapy, and surgery, while trying to get a job, or actually getting a job. A job that does not pay too much. Oh, yes, AHCCCS had decided to shut the doors on me just before I lost my job, but I convinced them I'd suddenly become unemployed, so they reinstated me. AHCCCS puts a totally unfair wage cap on people, to keep them in poverty. Either you accept the risks of having no health care in order to get a good paying job, or, you live well below the poverty line in order to get health care. I doubt very much President Obama would fix my situation with his completely unconstitutional health care bill.

And now about the US government, Big Brother, and their true owners and operators, the PTB, the Big Banks, The FED. When Wikileaks, which I fully support any way I can, put out those Cables, the US and a bunch of people were in a huge uproar. Then the US Government used their substantial censorship power to shut down Wikileaks' DNS resolution, without due process, thus destroying any trust I had in ICANN's neutrality. So I decided not only to run TOR, I2P, and Freenet, to help people continue to be free, which was only made MORE important because of what's going on in Egypt, etc., but I also decided to find alternatives to government controlled systems like ICANN.

So, I found Unified Root, which creates the Sundial Browser which is required in order to get to sites that use the alternative Top Level Domains provided by Unified Root, like http://dlife.diabetes. And I also found The Internet Names Authorization & Information Center (INAIC) and switched from my normal DNS servers to theirs, in order to get to sites that use their TLDs. Unfortunately, I can't find any place that lists any sites that use their TLDs, so right now I think it's useless.

And then I stumbled across Bitcoin, and was totally awed! A digital currency, that is publicly traded with a bunch of other world currencies, which is distributed, and anonymous! Wow! This means you can use money all around the world, without banks, without centralized government control, or something like the FED that just prints up as much monopoly money as they want, any time they want, then Charge an Interest Fee to the entire US for the privilege of using THEIR currency system.

The Fed is illegal, the IRS is evil, the Income Tax system was never properly ratified and is Unconstitutional, and Bitcoin can be used to sidestep all of that! The Fair Tax will abolish them, and I fully support it, but I really like Bitcoin too.

I can't think of anything else to mention at the moment, so, I'll get going.

Long Live Liberty!
.shorah gah bigtotee b'shehmtee

Happy Birthday/Quitting Day

2009-10-30T10:09:00.003-07:00

Ok, here is the story, just so you know. I quit my job, on my Birthday, because my Boss stabbed me in the back. He knew better, and screwed me anyway. First, background story:

I was a Security Officer working for Thomas Protective Services, I have had very bad knees and other disabilities for a very long time, meaning I am restricted from doing the amount of walking, running, jumping and other physical activities that most Security Officers do. A few weeks ago I quit TPS because they screwed me, they had me work a 14 hour shift, despite the promise I was given that I wouldn't have to work a 14 hour shift. Well, I guess I didn't work the entire 14 hours, only 13.75 hours. But pretty damn close enough, damnit! I then went over to Sky Security, brought over by my boss who had quit TPS just a day before. My new employment with Sky wasn't much better than with TPS, but, there were promises of a wonderful new future with Sky, so, I went with it.

So, about 4 weeks ago or so I started working at Optima CamelView Village, patrolling around on a golf cart making sure all levels of the underground Garage are secured and safe for everybody, and doing parking enforcement. A few weeks ago I got the Flu, and was laid out for a week, with a Doctor's note requiring me to stay off duty for a week. I finally got over it, but my Boss required me to get a note from the Doctor specifically stating "no restrictions" before putting me back on the schedule. But, he didn't put me back on the schedule when he got the note, instead he kept me off the schedule till the next week, which started this Monday. So, I was out of work for 2 frakin weeks! He scheduled me for a 12 hour shift on Tuesday, October 27th, My Birthday, from 6pm to 6am, followed by a mandatory meeting at 8am that could last several hours, because he likes to yell at us and ramble on about stuff. When I got to work Tuesday, I found out that the golf cart I had always used to do patrols was not charged because the charger was screwed up, and that my boss had been pissed off and told everyone that the cart was off limits from now on.

I texted my boss asking what I should do since I can't use the cart, and he texted me back "Foot patrol, your doctor gave no restrictions". Well that pissed me off! He knows damn well that note had nothing at all to do with my disabilities and health issues and that it's context was about the Flu ONLY. And he knows damn well I got that note because he specifically required it in order to put me back on the schedule! I was so fraking mad, I quit that very fraking minute. I was on duty not much more than a half hour that night. I immediately called Dad to turn around and pick me up, so I could get home. You see, I had already asked Dad if he would give me a ride to and from work, knowing that by the time that fraking 8am meeting was over I'd be far too tired to drive safely all the way home. I turned in my stuff, and got the hell out of there. I was way too fraking mad, I was livid, and I'm still ticked off.

This is the kind of thing SHARP school pulled on me, years and years ago, when they tricked me into trying to jump rope, despite the fact that I was still recovering after having broken both of my legs! Yes, BOTH of my legs were broken, and they were screwing around trying to get me, a kid, to do PE stuff! Mother F*%(#!!! So because I jumped, ONCE, despite the fact that I collapsed in pain instantly, they used that as an excuse to claim that my Doctor's note waiving PE was invalidated, and punished me for refusing to run, jog, jump, or whatever other bullsh&^# they were trying to make me do. My punishment included not being allowed to eat lunch, and having to spend the entire lunch period outside in the hot sun on the hot cement with a jump rope I refused to use.

No body screws me like that, nobody!! And I don't frakin care how angry it makes you that I still remember the horribly hurtful things people have done to me! Those are some of my most clear memories! I'll never forget the horrors I've been through, not one kneecap dislocation, not one fraking crash, not one abuse I've ever had!

Damnit!

Anyway, now I'm looking for a job, and hoping against all logic that I'll get a job at a place that Is NOT insane and abusive.

Frak me...

Anyway, I also started a new diet, called HCG, on my Birthday, and so far I've lost 8 pounds, woot!

Octomatics

2009-07-06T11:07:00.002-07:00

I just heard someone say, last night on Coast to Coast AM, something about a New Numbering System, and you know I'm absolutely obsessed over numbers, so I googled to find it. And, I'm very happy to have found Octomatics, although I do think it needs a better name, Octomatic makes it sound like a mechanical squid or something. How about Octonary? It's basically a combination of Octal and Binary, it uses a form of Binary notation for each of it's 7 numeral characters, but it is an Octal positional numbering system. I love it, and I hope it catches on! Dang, I'm so excited and happy, it's like someone gave me a birthday present today! :) I wonder if there are any more New Numbering Systems. My favorite is still D'ni, btw.

Gambling and nonsense

2009-07-01T11:19:00.002-07:00

I have been told not to play with face cards because, of all things, they are used in gambling games, I have found out that people decided to stop using dice to play games and instead used a spinner for much the same reason, because of a connection to gambling. People don't understand the world the way I do, I guess. I see the objects in the world around me as nothing more than objects, no matter what they may have been used for, I see numerous possible uses for them, and don't care about what connotations may be attached to them. When it comes to gambling, I think it can be an extremely damaging addiction, and people should be as careful about it as they are about any addictive substance. It can totally destroy your life. That being said, I think it is ridiculous to proclaim those various items that have been used in gambling games as being evil, no matter what other uses they may have.

For instance, I have played Solitaire a lot, I have greatly enjoyed it since I was young, and I still enjoy it to this day, but, it is not a dangerous addiction unless you play it at a Casino, where you spend money and try to win back more than you spent. In that case, Solitaire can easily leave you penniless, destitute! I don't play Casino gambling games in real casinos, or even online betting websites, I only play them in games I can download and play against a computer, or play for free online with other players. I never, I repeat, I never spend money gambling on things like that.

I have a religious reason for not gambling, I've been taught that it's bad, and I know why it can be very bad, you can wind up losing everything you own, and still want to play more! You can wind up getting into nasty trouble with criminals, who like to fix gambling games for their benefit by the way.

The thing about gambling is, you are taking a financial risk, and that means that anything can become a gambling game. Anything at all can be gambled on, from horse racing to turtle racing, from Day Trading on the stock markets, to those crazy derivatives that we have discovered are destroying our economy. Any time you risk your own money for the hope that you will get back more money than you put in, without any actual effort on your part, that is a Gamble. The higher the risk, the higher the possible rewards, and that is what makes it so addictive, you get a rush when you get something out of it, and you get hooked on the thrill. Those gambling games in the Casinos would not have nearly as many players if there was no financial risk or possible reward involved. If you could play any game in the Casino, for free, as often as you want, and get absolutely no money from any of them, the addictive property would be gone. The games themselves are not all that interesting, IMHO. It's the possibility of winning a LOT of money that draws the huge crowds. And the Casino always wins in the end, they are the ones that always get the biggest jackpot of all.

The state lotteries people can participate in are not all that different, you are spending money in the hopes of getting something more in return. You can easily get swallowed up by the thrill and waste all of your money on lottery tickets. It is therefore every bit as dangerous as any Casino, in that it is highly addictive.

I am a rebellious type, when someone tells me not to play with dice or face cards because of the gambling connotation, I'm more likely to buy up all the gambling paraphernalia I can afford and play with them all I want just to flaunt my utter disdain for such stupidity. Yes, I called it stupidity to refuse to play with face cards, or dice! You think those things have magical powers to addict your brain, like they are laced with crack?! NO! The only power any object has in this world is the power YOU give it. If you choose to not gamble, you have nothing to worry about. You can play any "gambling" game ever invented without risking any of your money, not hoping for any big rewards, and not falling into a dangerous addiction that can utterly destroy your life. And, as I said above, ANY thing can be gambled on, any kind of game you can think of, any activity, from the weather, to bird watching, can all become the subject of a gambling scheme.

By the way, anything can become a drinking game too, just in case you didn't realize that. Not that I've ever played any drinking games, I don't drink. But if I did, I would drink, like, rootbeer or something. Seriously.

Ok, back to gambling, you can play freakin Candy Land and turn it into a gambling game, you can bet on who lands where first, or who get's to do what first, or whatever. It doesn't matter. Gambling has very little to do with the game itself, it's about the Odds, trying to beat the Odds and win big. That's all that matters. As long as it appears to be random enough, with some Chance that even the favorite to win might lose, then you have something people can bet on. The biggest danger is, of course, the criminal element, those sleezy, violent, nasty people who try to rig things for their own benefit, while trying to make it Seem like everything is actually random. Yah, right.

My point is, don't gamble, unless you go into it with every intention of losing, as the price you gladly pay for the fun you are having. Otherwise, you could easily fall into a dangerous addictive trap that could utterly destroy you. This would be extra bad if it hurt your family and loved ones. Don't Do It!! But, go ahead and play any kind of gambling game you want, just use, like, candy instead of money, or soemthing, I mean, really, you can play any thing you want and not risk your freakin life because of it.

There, now, if you see me playing Solitaire with my round card deck some time, don't go trying to harp on me about how I'm not supposed to be playing with face cards, because if you do I may very well throw a pie at your face. Well, not really, I'll at least tell you off.

Making my thoughts private

2009-06-26T04:39:00.003-07:00

I have recently been warned about people, family or friends, being uncomfortable with, or thinking that I am too open with, my thoughts and opinions. Well, then, fine, no more openness. From this moment forward, NO ONE is allowed to know what I think or feel about anything unless they are either a fellow blogger, and thus already cool in my book, or a close friend or family member with whom I believe I can entrust my real thoughts and feelings without being flamed, put down, belittled, and in other words really really hurt emotionally. Thank you, that is all. I only ever wanted to just dump my thoughts somewhere, and if people choose not to ignore it and actually care about me as a person, cool, otherwise, I don't care.

I just need a place to blow off some steam, put out ideas and thoughts that are bugging me and driving me nuts. If I don't write it SOMEWHERE I'll go insane and the stress and strain of life in general is literally killing me. This is, in my opinion, a far healthier thing to do than having fights with my dad, over the stupidest little things, or having to defend myself to people who just don't understand. If, for any reason, you do not want to know my thoughts and feelings, don't read. Oh, and by the way, I will no longer be posting any, and I mean ANY of my thoughts and feelings anywhere else, not Facebook, or Twitter.

I will post my views and opinions, my beliefs and hopes, my dreams and even nightmares on here, and if you decide to attack me about it, I will block you. If you decide I don't deserve to be related to you anymore, fine, disown me. Heck, I might as well just shoot myself, I'm so sick and tired of all the pain and all the depression. And accusing me of whining about every little thing will just drive me mad, and not the just plain angry kind of mad, the I want to go kill someone kind of mad. You get me?

If you are one of the very very few people I have invited to view my blog, congratulations, that means I love you, and trust you with my most intimate feelings and thoughts. If you have no wish to view these things, tell me now, and I'll remove you from the allowed list. If you're cool with that, awesome.

Since this is not being viewed by people I don't feel are entirely trustworthy, they can go suck a hard boiled egg, AHHAA! Ok, I think I'm starting to calm down, I had better or I'll give myself a heart attack and die before I even click Publish.

I consider myself to be extremely damaged psychologically, and I have no idea what to do about it. Think about it for a minute, I've never held a job longer than a year, and when I finally did I was so ecstatic and happy I just about passed out. I've never been on a date, much less kissed a girl, and who knows why? Certainly not me. Every time I am around a girl that I feel anything for, I seem to shut down, clam up, and just treat her like I would anyone else, a person with whom I can have a relatively safe time, but nothing more. I am too confused by the world around me and the behavior of these incredibly strange creatures called humans, and I am utterly surprised to find that I am one of them. If I were to find out that I am actually some kind of alien that replaced the REAL Aaron Ingebrigtsen shortly after birth and am on a mission to study this strange race, I would be relieved and happy with my existence. As it is, I'm constantly under emotional strain and turmoil just trying to figure out how to be a human being like anyone else.

Maybe I should just accept that I'm far too unique, not really human at all, though my form would suggest that I am. I should just live my life as if absolutely everything I experience is a new and alien experience, and treat everyone as if I've never met anything like them before. I've dreamed of losing all my memories and starting over from scratch. Wow, what a gift that would be. Oh, sure, I love my family, and friends, but, forgetting all the bad things that drive me crazy, and learning nothing but new things might actually be a huge improvement on my life.

Well, anyway, I'm done ranting and raving. It's probably a huge mistake even posting this. If I've offended you... well... Fooled You, HAHAHA!!! Seriously, "He who is offended when offense was not intended is a Fool, he who is offended when offense WAS intended is a Greater Fool!".

Love you, peace.

Numerology hocus pocus

2009-06-08T05:24:00.003-07:00

If you love numerology, stop reading right now, because I'm gonna write stuff here you are not going to like or agree with, and I don't want you yelling at me, or at least posting flaming red hot messages about it.

Ok, here goes, I am very obsessed with Numbers and Number Systems, and because of that I get very angry about Numerology, I detest it with a passion. You may be thinking, "Wha?! But you're a Numbers freak, I thought you'd Love Numerology, cause it's numbers and stuff", yeah, well, it's that "and stuff" part that bugs the heck out of me. There is some simple mathematics being used in numerology, but that is the only part of it that is in any way interesting to me, the rest of the stuff is nothing more than a belief system. I'm not saying you can't believe whatever you want, heck, you can believe that you have the ability, all by yourself, to clear the whole world of bad energy, in just one trance session, but, whatever. I'm not gonna argue with your beliefs, whatever they may be, I'm just saying, NUMEROLOGY IS NOT THE SCIENCE OF NUMBERS!! If anything it is a belief system in mystical powers and symbolism attached to numerals in just ONE numbering system, the decimal, Arabic, base 10, numbering system so many people use for every day life.

And now for why I refuse to believe even the smallest thing in Numerology, whatever symbolism or mystical magical property a numeral is thought to have in the Decimal numbering system could not possibly apply in any other numbering system, and in my mind this invalidates the whole thing, period.

Ok, for instance, this guy on the radio was going on about some numerological thing about the number 111, and how it's divisible by 37. And he was going on about how 222, 333, 444, etc. are all divisible by 37. I'm like, duh, and, so what? He was going on about how there are no accidents or coincidences in the universe, everything has a meaning, bla bla bla. So, whatever, he, and anyone else, can attach whatever mystical magical meaning they want to this simple mathematical process that, as far as I'm concerned, has absolutely no meaning.

So what if 37x3 is 111? 37x6 is 222, 37x9 is 333, etc., every third iteration gives you an iteration of 111, so what? But this only works for Decimal, what about other numbering systems? There are others you know, how about Binary, Hexadecimal, Octal, to name just a few? That's what gets me all riled about numerology, it assumes, rather stupidly in my opinion, that Decimal is the Universal numbering system that everything in the universe vibrates to, which gives these Numerals special powers in our lives. I say, bull pucky.

Nothing anyone sais could possibly convince me of any of that crap. And the main reason is, as I said earlier, if it can only apply in one numbering system, and no others, it's absolutely meaningless drivel.

My favorite numbering system is the D'ni, base 25, numbering system, but I also like a bunch of other numbering systems and enjoy converting values between them. A numbering system is nothing more than a means of representing a real value, just symbols with specific value attached to each one. If that value being represented has some kind of magical power itself, then it doesn't matter how it's being represented, but, Numerology is the opposite belief, that the symbol is what carries the magical power, not the real value it represents. So, bla bla bla, and yackety shmackety.

Ok, I'm done ranting.

OS/2 Warp 4 with VMware Player

2009-06-04T19:42:00.004-07:00

Hi, this is something I'm excited about for now, I used to have OS/2 Warp a long time ago, I loved it, I thought it was way superior to the DOS 6.22 with Windows 3.1 I also had at the time, and I was mad as all heck that IBM gave up on the OS market and let Microsoft take the whole PC pie. ARRGH! But, now I get to have some fun with OS/2 Warp without making any changes to the PC that is now running windows XP. Sure, it's not relevant today, it's apps just can't do what people need to do these days, but it's nostalgia, can you really blame me?

Anyway, here is how I got OS/2 Warp 4 installed into a virtual machine using VMware Player.

I first downloaded VMware Player, then I downloaded OS/2 Warp 4, because my OS/2 Warp copy is damaged and no longer works for some reason, and I gave up on it long ago. This is the configuration file needed to get it working. I also need a .vmdk virtual disk image file, so I downloaded a package of pre-created blanks of varying sizes, picked the 2gig one, copied it to the folder I want to run OS/2 in, renamed it os2.vmdk and copied the .iso cd image file and tried to boot up. That's when I remembered that OS/2 was created before bootable CD technology was available, nothing, not even Macintosh computers knew how to boot from a CD at the time. So, I had to grab a DOS 6.22 disk image, which I extracted using winrar because I have no diskette drive and I need to load the disk image into a virtual drive. So, I went and got Virtual Floppy Disk, and loaded up the image as A: drive. Of course, since VMware Player already thinks there is a diskette drive, thanks to the configuration file above, it was easy to load up A: drive and boot DOS in the virtual machine. DOS found the CD and gave it a letter, R: for some reason, and I just had to go there and run cdinst.bat.

This program on the OS/2 CD creates installation diskettes necessary to boot OS/2 and install it. Well, the next thing to do is tell VMware Player to disconnect A: drive, then go to the VFD control panel and unload the current diskette image, and tell it to open a new RAM diskette, which allows me to put whatever I want into the virtual disk, and save it to an image file later. Then I told VMware Player to connect to A: again and told the installer batch to create the first diskette. When it was done I disconnected the A: drive again and told VFD to save the RAM disk as an image, calling it "os2 disk 1.ima". I repeated for each of the diskettes, then followed the instructions to have the "OS/2 Installation" diskette loaded and reboot. That loaded up and told me to put in disk 1, I disconnected A: and told VFD to load the disk 1 image, etc. etc. You can do all of that work, or, since I already did the work, you can just use the image files I created, yay, shortcut!

Once all of that swapping around of image files and loading is done, you have a working OS/2 Warp 4 installation in a virtual machine. Weee! :) You may need to be patient, at least on my computer it seems to take forever to get from disk to disk in the installation process, just sit and wait.

Hear ye here now

2009-06-04T03:45:00.002-07:00

I want to say a few things about why I post messages on here, and message boards and such. It's because I am actually very quiet most of the time IRL, I don't like discussing much with people in person, especially if it's really controversial topics that get me all riled up. I get much more emotional when talking to someone in person about things I believe very strongly about, or have very strong opinions about, than I would when posting something online. At least when it's an online message, I can take a breather, try to calm down, maybe take a nap and get to posting later. But in person, there's no time out, it can be sort of like a no holds bared verbal brawel with me, and that's the kind of thing I can't seem to resist, and it's also the kind of thing that causes the most trouble.

So, if I've posted something online that I feel very strongly about, I most likely do not want to discuss it at all in person, and will do anything to avoid the subject, including walking out the front door. I'm not very social at all, I find social situations to be extremely stressful, even when everyone around me is being kind and friendly, I still find it highly uncomfortable. I'm pretty comfortable at family gatherings, I don't isolate myself usually, but I still feel a twinge of stress any time a topic I feel strongly about comes up in conversation.

Also, the more emotional I get the worse my muscle spasms get, I can't control it, and it has gotten to the point where it is causing a lot of pain. I don't know why, and I have no idea what to do about it. So, if you could please, if you meet me in person, just don't talk about stuff that will get me riled up, don't try to push my buttons, I'm not all that stable in the first place.

I may bring up a topic that is bound to get me riled up, which I sometimes do because I have a need to express my thoughts and feelings that sometimes overrides my need to shut up and be quiet. But when I do, I almost always wind up getting very upset, my heart rate goes way too high, my blood pressure too probably, and I get nasty headaches and pain all over the place.

Right now I feel pretty calm and collected, and yet, my chest hurts and my heart is trying to stop beating. So, I'm gonna try to stay real calm and not say or post things that will get me all riled up. If you think I'm complaining too much, oh well, too bad, I keep quiet all day long, when people ask me how I'm doing I say I'm fine, and don't mention anything. So, whatever I complain about on here, it's because I need to stop keeping stuff bottled up.

Ooooohhhhhhmmmmmm, Ohhhhhmmmmmmm, *cough cough* uh, Ohhhmmmmmmm....

There, now, I've uncorked, relieved some emotional pressure, and I'm ready for sleep.

Good night.

Wine

2009-05-24T18:54:00.002-07:00

I don't drink, at all, but there have been many moments when I wish I could have washed away my pain and sorrow with waves of alchohol. I am really sick and tired of people trying to push me to drink, with claims like the health benefits of Wine. The fact is that any health benefits of wine come from the GRAPES, and has absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with the fermentation process. You could drink grape juice, the real stuff not the fake stuff, and get the same benefits, without the probability of getting drunk. Here is another fact for you, alchohol damages the liver, and maybe other organs too I dunno, so it is better to use it in moderation, rather than stupid things like binge drinking. OMG, binge drinking is completely insane, you might as well go shoot yourself, that would be about as effective.

So every time I see stories about things like Resveratrol, a really great anti-oxident that could be an amazing boon for people all over the world, I get angry, because they always talk about Wine, in this case Red Wine. Yah, they talk about how you have to drink like 1000 bottles of Red Wine a day to get the benefits from this cool stuff. Something I'm sure some people would love to at least attempt, but the benefits of the resveratrol would be absolutley blown away by the damaging effects of all that alchohol. Gosh, dang, that's way too much wine to be drinking every day.

So, when someone tells you to have a glass of wine, if you want to, you can have a glass of grape juice instead, same effect, without the alchohol. Although, I'm sure the taste is very different, I wouldn't know from experience though. Whatever, if you like wine, drink with wisdom, don't over do it, that's crazy nuts. If you don't drink, cool, you don't have to, no matter what anyone says.

I have no idea how long people have been fermenting plant stuffs to make alchoholic drinks of all kinds, probably since the beginning of time or something, but if you use the alchohol right you can keep people healthy and strong and able to work hard and live a great life. If you use it wrong, you can destroy families, and society in general. Beer may well have saved the human race from extinction at one time, but, I doubt very much that people were stumbling around drunk all day long every day, causing everything to grind to a halt. Even in those ancient times, people understood the importance of being sober, or mostly sober, in order to have a functional society, and a happy life.

Happiness is not the bottom of a bottle, nor the barrel of a gun.

Ok, my chest hurts a lot, my heart is going frakin nuts, and I'm gonna have to go lie down. ugh.

Medical Tyrany

2009-05-22T01:50:00.002-07:00

Should someone be forced to be medically treated against their will, by doctors who don't allow any choice in the matter, and judges who use the force of law to give those doctors all the power they want? There is a 13 year old kid who has a form of cancer, the doctor has said there is no known alternative treatment for this cancer, and therefore the kid must be put through chemo-therapy and radiation, maybe even surgery. First of all, there are a LOT of alternative treatments that people have found actually work, second of all one of the biggest arguments against any particular treatment is that it hasn't passed a double blind test, which was only created to eliminate the possibility of placebo effect. If placebo cures cancer, we don't need any frakin drugs!! Take that!

I know there are plenty of people trying to push products for their own financial gain, and are willing to lie and cheat to get what they want. Sure, we need to protect ourselves and our kids from people like that. The thing is, there are plenty of respected doctors who do a lot of research into and support alternative treatments for all kinds of diseases, including various forms of cancer. So you can't lump all of those alternatives together in the same category as mirracle snake oil crap, which is what the FDA was really created to protect us from.

I do think that a kid with a life threatening disease should be treated, and be monitored by doctors. To force him or her to take chemo-therapy, a horrible bunch of poisons that could kill you or even cause cancer, get radiation, again horribly damaging and could cause cancer, as well as surgery, always very risky no matter what the reason, is all very very wrong. The parents should, of course, have the right to decide what kind of treatments their kid gets, even if thier doctor doesn't agree, they should have the right to seek the advice of as many other doctors as they choose.

But, noooooo, the government has decided to control our lives and save us from the most horrible thing in the universe, Liberty. Or so they seem to think. If this kid's parents, and the kid himself, do not want that horrible, cancer causeing, method of treatment for cancer, they should be able to seek out alternatives. And there ARE alternatives that DO work. I know it for a fact, from personal experience, and don't you dare tell me I'm lying. I will smack you in the head with a large wet trout, prefferably dead since I'm not cruel to animals, just MORONS!

I know, I'm an idiot, and it seems to me I deserve quite a lot of smacking in the head... I do get some you know, people don't always like me, and sometimes they beat me down. Sometimes I come to agree, eventually, that I deserved to be smacked, but most of the time I don't agree, and I get mad, and stay mad, for a long time.

Enough about me!! This is about a kid with cancer who is being forced, no matter what he or his parents think, to have horrible treatments! Oh, and the doctors are claiming that these treatments will cure the cancer. HA! Since when do they tell you your cancer is cured when it's gone into remission?! They never tell you that! They know that their treatments, horrible though they are, cannot possibly wipe out 100% of the cancer, and that it could come back some day. And, yes, those nasty chemicals and horrible radiation blasts can cause cellular damage that creates other cancer cells! Frak! Would you take a drowning man and force him to drink a glass of water? Would you take a man who is on fire, and hose him down with gasoline?! OOoo, you are doing something, that's for sure, you are being proactive! But that doesn't mean that what you are doing is the RIGHT thing to do.

Now, about my experience with cancer treatment, it's actually through my mom, she had skin cancer, and later breast cancer, one cancer she absolutely cured beyond any shadow of doubt with alternatives, the other she opted for standard treatment including chemo, and surgery. As a result of the standard treatment she is in horrible pain all the time, has trouble walking, or even getting out of bed, has to wear a special sleeve on her arm to control swelling for the REST of her life, and has to deal with the fact that the cancer may come back some day even though it is in remission right now. In my opinion, maybe not humble, the standard treatments have done far more harm than good, and I wish she had gone with alternatives for both cancers, rather than just one. But, at least they didn't amputate body parts, which is something they really like doing when it comes to women. If it's men, it's a different story, for some reason. But that's another story for another time.

I am in a lot of pain most of the time from a lot of different things, and I have no medical coverage or help of any kind in dealing with it all. I need relief, cures, whatever I can get, I'm desperate! If there is a mirracle pill that cures all the stuff I'm dealing with, I'll pay for it, I'll take it, whatever it is. But I'm paranoid, I will have to do a lot of research on it and see if I trust it or not. Just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean there aren't people out to get me! Why are you still reading this?! Are you a spy? Aaaahhhh!

PIctures

2009-05-19T13:48:00.003-07:00

Here is a slideshow of the amazing things I see every night at work, well, not really, it's just the crap that fills my night up with something to do. Here ya go.

Madness!

2009-05-19T13:11:00.003-07:00

I'm very angry, and very tired, which is usually not a good combination, but I am going to write a few things here and go take a nap. Ok, I am angry because of the madness of what my job is doing to me! Let me explain in words that make no sense, ahem... Naarf, poit!

Now, for something that makes just as much sense, but in words you may understand... My boss called me today to tell me that Dispatch is getting confused, so now I have to start working an entire hour earlier than usual, and leave an hour earlier too, so they don't get their silly little brains all twisted up into pretzels. But, here's the thing, they will still get confused!! Let me explain a little bit better, on monday, tuesday, and wednesday I am supposed to do two patrols each night, that's call on duty, do some stuff, then call off duty, and then some time later do that a second time, and I'm done. Now, on the other days it's a normal 5 hour shift of calling on duty, doing stuff, and more stuff, then calling in for post check, and of course doing more stuff, then eventually calling off duty after 5 hours. They are getting confused because I'm starting my first patrol when I would normally start my regular 5 hour shift, and ending my Second patrol when I would normally end my normal 5 hour shift. So, they are going "duh!!!" and thinking that I'm doing a regular 5 hour shift on those days that I am scheduled for 2 patrols, even though I clearly state in my calls to dispatch that I'm calling on duty, and off duty, for my first, then later my second, patrol, and I'm clearly marking in my reports that it is 2 patrol hits, and I'm clearly recording in my Time Sheet that it's 2 patrol hits. So, now I'm going to be doing the exact same thing, only an hour earlier on both ends, I have no idea what I'm going to do when they Continue to be confused as a result of their mental disability.

So, because Dispatch, and maybe even the clients, are MORONS, I have to work a whole hour earlier three nights out of the week, for no other reason than to attempt to relieve their poor brains from having to think!! All they have to do is PAY ATTENTION when I call them, and READ the freakin reports and time sheets! Why is that too difficult for them to do? I dunno, maybe they are sitting around smoking pot or something.

There, now I've expressed my anger in an irrational manner on a stupid blog that nobody cares about, and I'm gonna go take a nap. I'm seriously in need of escape from reality.

Not a salesman

2009-05-14T01:04:00.002-07:00

Please note that I do not sell anything, I am horrible at convincing people to buy something, and even terrible at convincing people to do something that costs them nothing at all. Any claims I have made of knowledge of cures for things, like acid reflux disease, (which isn't an actual disease but is a made up disease to convince people they don't have indigestion), or cancer, or whatever, are my personal opinions based on research and personal experience. I have no vested interest whatsoever in the sale of any product by any manufacturer. If I told you Oxygen is a cure for insomnia, you could just as easily hyperventilate for free as opposed to buying an oxygen tank somewhere.

If any of my claims turn out to be incorrect, correct me. If you convince me I'm wrong, which I do not guarantee, then I will change my mind. If you fail to convince me, which is admittedly more likely than not, I will at least treat you with respect while continuing to believe whatever crazy thing you are trying to correct me about.

I ask that you treat me with as much respect, even if we both know that privately we are both calling each other every nasty thing we can think of, while remaining convinced beyond all rational thought that we are each correct. Or is that just me? Whatever.

Did you really think I would stop there? Uh... well, ok, I'll stop. I'm gonna go bark at a tree for a few minutes.

Fascism?

2009-05-12T13:13:00.004-07:00

I just heard about a news story last night about how my state government is paying companies from outside of Arizona to do various contracts. This upsets me, because that's MY state taxes that is leaving the state, it's not staying here and helping keep people employed HERE. The reasoning for this is that they are encouraging competition by purchasing services or products for the lowest price. Walmart is my government now, right?

Normally, I would agree that competition is a good thing, I mean that is one of the most important features in a capitalist system. But governments are inherently monopolies, they force us to pay them, and they do what they want. It's not like I can just choose to have the California government perform necessary functions here, right? So, if we all have no choice but to have our own state government do things for us, then we should at least expect that our government will support us in ways that we need, like for instance providing jobs that support our own economy.

They say that if they become preferential towards Arizona companies, that would cause a backlash in other states that would make it hard for Arizona companies to do business in those other states. My thought is this, so what? No, seriously, so what? If Arizona's government contracts are available only to Arizona companies, that means more business being generated by OUR tax dollars, HERE. If other states do the same thing, cool, seems like it would be good for Their local economies, just like it would be good for ours. Prove to me there is actual reciprocation from awarding contracts to companies in other states that basically balances things out, and I'll say fine, just keep doing it like this for as long as ya want. But if you can't prove to me that just as much local business is being generated for us by other states as the amount of business being awarded to companies in other states by our state government, then I'll tell you to go eat a dirty sock... I've got a few for you if you can't find any.

Then Dad said that he thinks there is no difference between a State, or even Federal, government and any corporation. As we all know, a corporation, especially if it is publicly traded, is expected, and even legally required, to make as much money as possible while spending as little money as possible, which means that the focus of all of their activities has absolutley no moral or ethical bias one way or another. That means corporations can become corrupt, do illegal things, do really wrong things, all for the sake of the bottom line. I say, as long as a corporation can get away with it, they'll do it, and if they think they might get caught, they still might do it if they have the resources to manipulate the system that is supposed to keep them in line. For one really good example, let's look at Microsoft. Or maybe let's look at a company that has actually been taken down and put out of business for the wrong things they are doing, what was that energy company called... uhm, Enron, yes, that's it. Very good examples, one evil corporation that went down hard, the other is still around, still strong, still up to their evil plots.

And now for why I titled this "Fascism?", one of the definitions I have read or heard about what Fascism actually is says that it is a combination of Corporatism and Government. Now, we do not currently live under the most repressive and violent regime possible, there is still plenty of wiggle room, but I am very conserned about how close we may be getting to that. Are we living in a Fascist state? Let's look at our Federal Government paying private contractor companies to go fight over seas, or provide building and food services for our soldiers, etc. etc. Is all of that fascism? Our military, our government functions, everything that runs our country and our lives is all made up of Corporations?! Is that not Fascism?!

Well, let's look at what wikipedia says about Fascism. Wow, I'm just as confused as ever... my head hurts. Can someone please be clear about this? What exactly does Fascism mean?! I've watched a weird sci-fi show that takes place in South Africa called Charlie Jade, which is about parallel universes. Charlie's home universe is way frakin converted over to Fascism, in every possible way, it is government by Corporations. You are not a citizen of anything, you are an employee. Corporate competition includes armies killing each other, corporate armies, employees killing the employees of a competitor. Is this where we are heading? Are all of the governments in our country just Corporations? What about the governments of other countries? Is our current economic hardship really all planned by Fascists trying to convert every government into corporations that can be purchased, owned, and run by private groups or individuals?!

I'm freaking out here. I'm going completely bonkers. I need some pills. Oh wait, those were provided to me by Corporations! Aaaaah!! Aaaaahh!! Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!

Maybe I'll just start smashing my head against things like walls, desks... cars.

The Voynich Manuscript

2009-05-10T12:12:00.002-07:00

I have read this article and find it fascinating! I also have a theory, and you may laugh at me about it but I really do think it makes sense. My theory to explain the existence of this manuscript depicting plants that don't exist anywhere on our world, in a language unrelated to any known language, is that it came from another parallel world. I don't mean a space faring race that brings paper books with them to other planets, or a race of people who use advanced technology like ours to travel to other worlds through portals.

I think that a race of people called the D'ni, who had a magical yet scientifically approached means of travel from parallel world to parallel world, which they call Ages, had taken this manuscript from one of the many worlds they visited a very long time ago and brought it here to study it and that world. Somehow, this manuscript wound up among us, confusing the heck out of scholars and scientists for decades.

My definition of a D'ni Age is a place in time, rather than a particular time, or erra, like what we would usually think of it. Like, the stone age, or the bronze age. A D'ni Age could be another planet in a parallel universe exactly identical to this one, or a planet actually in this universe but in a different time than what you and I consider to be the present. But since the D'ni Link, or travel, directly to a world in a parallel universe, there is no way of knowing the spacial or temporal coordinates of that world as compared to any other world traveled to.

The D'ni became isolated and xenophobic after a race of people tried to kill them a very long time ago, so this manuscript couldn't have been procured after that event. The vast majority of D'ni wanted nothing to do with us Humans, they considered us to be far too primative, war-like, and not worth knowing. The D'ni, unfortunately, were mass murdered by a mad man, and the survivors will not likely return to their home here on earth.

I think this manuscript came from one of the vast uncountable number of Ages, Leaves on the Great Tree of Probabilities, of which our world is but one. I believe there is a vast and unknowable multiverse of universes, many like our own, and many so utterly different from our own that it would boggle the mind.

I believe that imagination is not the ability to create worlds, but the ability to sense them, to glimpse a parallel world that DOES exist somewhere in the multiverse. Just think of what it would be like to travel to a world you have seen in your imagination. Maybe the world you travel to only vaguely matches your imagination, because human perception is often error prone. But wouldn't it be the most awesome adventure ever to actually travel to those worlds, and know without any doubt that they are all real, in their own separate universe?

Ok, I'm done with my insane burst of bla bla bla, yackety schmackety.

Kleftik

2009-05-08T12:20:00.003-07:00

The game Dad and I have been working on is really coming along, we've got the rules all hashed out, a game board that looks nice, pawns and dice, chips, and a box. Here is the label for the box, and rules page, I think it's perfect. See if you can guess what this game is about. Well, ok, I'm not very good at suspense, Kleftik is based on another game called Quandary, but Dad and I have made so many changes it's barely the same thing at all. The whole thing is all about confusion, randomness, but it's also got a lot of strategy. Oh, it's really fun playing it with Dad. I hope we get this thing published by some game maker, won't that be awesome!

Heartburn, a conspiracy

2009-05-04T12:50:00.002-07:00

Ok, this is a repost of something I posted earlier, but I'm gonna make changes, I honestly think the pharmaceutical companies want us to become totally dependent on their "treatment" regime, and by regime I mean evil power bent on ruling everyone.

Do Not Believe the Lies told by the pharmaceutical companies about heartburn, acid reflux disease, and GURD, or whatever, and the supposed cure they claim to be antacids. Do NOT take antacids, unless you want to be hooked on them. They set you up for a painful fall. Here is my explanation for my insane rant!

A while ago I decided to start taking Tums, because of the calcium, I need it since I don't drink milk as I'm allergic to it. I had never had a problem with heartburn before, and I didn't think anything was wrong with eating a couple tums in the morning. Much to my painful surprise, I began to have heartburn every evening before bed, so I would take tums. Then I had heart burn in the morning so I took tums. Then I had heartburn in the afternoon, so I... yes, took tums. The heartburn kept getting more painful, and I also started having really painful abdominal cramps and constipation. Finally I figured out my problems all started when I started taking tums. So I stopped, cold turkey, and just suffered through the constipation, cramps, and heartburn. Oh yes, it hurt, it hurt and hurt like the word hurt had lost it's meaning and gained a whole new dictionary definition. When finally it subsided and my system returned to normal, I decided to research this thing that happened. Now I Know, and I'm telling you the truth and the facts! READ!

Heartburn and acid reflux disease and GURD are all the same thing, Indigestion. Ever had a backed up toilet? Ever had a backed up sink? Stinks doesn't it? This is what is happening to you, your digestive system is not breaking things down and moving it along properly, so it's backing up, and what happens to that acid that is trying hard to get that stuff moving? It's coming up your throat and it burns and hurts. They are Lying to you when they tell you that your problem is that you are making too much acid. Nonsense! Did you know that one of the most common side effects of antacids is constipation?! You are BACKING UP YOUR SYSTEM when you take antacids. So, you take an antacid, it does NOT shut down the acid making little pump things in your stomach, it acts as a chemical off switch for the acid itself, that is called a base or basic salt. The thing that Makes the acid only knows one thing, stuff isn't getting digested very well, must make more acid. So they rev up the acid production. So what happens when the antacid can no longer counteract the acids in your stomach, AND the acid makers have been trying their hardest to speed up and increase acid production? Heartburn times 2, or more!!! So you go take some more antacid to fight back! STOP Attacking your own body! OMG, seriously.

So, you are wondering what the frak you should do about your painful heartburn to make it stop eating up your throat. Well, that's easy. HELP your digestive system digest and move stuff along. What do you think happens when a residential septic system gets backed up? I've seen it on a movie, nasty stuff comes up in the back yard, they have to dig up the yard, remove the tank or whatever, and replace it. Horrible. Now, normally a septic system has stuff in it to help break down the crap you flush so it can move along. What happens when you pour, I dunno, toxic chemicals that kill the stuff that is supposed to break stuff down? Back up like crazy. I've seen an ad on TV for stuff to flush that will Help your septic system break stuff down. THAT my friend is what you should do to keep things moving.

So, how do you help your digestive system? Well, one way is to eat something called digestive enzymes, but I've also found out that something acidic really helps get things going. A little Apple Cider Vinegar, nasty horrible stuff that burns all the way down, will absolutely cure your heart burn, and you will be heart burn free for weeks if not more after just one dose. You think I'm kidding? I'm not. This is the truth about antacids, they attack and destroy your ability to digest. Indigestion IS what causes acid to reflux, or back up. Stop attacking your body, Help your body instead. For crying out loud.

There, that ends one of my many rants against the corporate/fascist world I see around me. I could be wrong, but I refuse to admit it right now. :)

Abortion

2009-05-04T04:57:00.002-07:00

I may have posted my thoughts on this subject somewhere, some time ago, but I don't remember where, when, or even if I did. For several hours at work tonight I was thinking about posting on this topic, so I'm going to bla bla bla, yackety schmackety...

Ok, here goes. From a religious point of view, and I am Mormon, I think abortion is not the right choice to make in most situations, although I do think there are situations where it is understandable. But I am a Libertarian, which means my Political and Legal point of view is that women should not be forced to continue a pregnancy against their will. I believe that an all out ban on abortion will cause a great deal more harm than good, and force women to seek out under-ground, illegal abortion doctors who very well might kill them in the process.

I do not believe that aborting a fetus in the early stages of development is the same thing as murdering a fully developed infant, and the only form of abortion I would absolutely ban no matter what the circumstances is late term, aka partial birth abortion, which is absolutely horrific beyond words, but I'll try to spell it out anyway. In partial birth abortion a fully formed, healthy, baby is pulled out of the womb, feet first, until the head is almost about to come out, then a pointed hollow vacuum tube is stabbed into the skull of the kicking and struggling baby, and the brain is sucked out. When the infant is dead, then the body is fully removed, and thrown away. There is no funeral, no proper burial, it is not treated like a person/human being, it is treated like so much trash. THAT is murder, THAT is infanticide, and there is absolutely no excuse whatsoever for it.

One of the major reasons I don't think all forms of abortion are basically murder is because of the personal and social reactions to natural abortion, in other words when, for some reason, a woman's body stops the pregnancy, without her or anyone else choosing to cause it to happen. This happens from time to time, it happened to women I know in my own life. It's sad, and all, but people individually, and society in general, do not treat those events the same way that the death of an infant is treated. I mean, there is no funeral, no casket, no burial, no groups of mourners weeping. In fact, usually, only a very few people are even aware that such an event even occurred. So, if people in general do not treat the natural loss of a pregnancy, sad though it is, the way they would treat the death of a child, then surely choosing to abort is not the same thing as murder. Do you follow the logic? I hope so.

As for earlier term abortions, which I am against remember, I do think there could be circumstances in which it would be the right decision, like if a child is raped, and impregnated. Should she be forced to bear the burden of carrying that child to full term, giving birth, and having to take care of it, or arrange for it to be adopted? And what if that child was raped by her father, or some other family member? If the baby is born, would it have genetic problems? What about probable social stigma for the girl and her baby? Maybe that is a situation in which abortion is the right choice. I don't like it, but... maybe. What about any woman at all who is raped? Should she be forced against her will to carry an unwanted child to term, and give birth, and bear the burden of caring for it? What about the hospital bills, and all the other costs?

Or how about crack addicted babies? Do you really think it's better to force a crack addicted pregnant woman to continue her pregnancy against her will, even though her baby has likely suffered developmental problems, either it's body, brain, or both, and will likely be born in unspeakable agony due to withdrawal? Even though the baby will likely be born premature, suffer horribly, and die within weeks of being born? Even though the baby will probably not enjoy a normal life even if it does survive those first few weeks? Why should any child be put through that if there is a way to end it before it even begins?

Some people believe that a child that dies before being baptised and "saved" will be sent to hell, or purgatory, or something. This belief sounds absolutely horrible to me, I don't care what religions preach it, it's WRONG! What kind of God would do such a horrible thing to a perfectly innocent, pure, sinless little child?! Any God that would do that is no God at all, in my book, and is instead an evil demon who should not be obeyed or worshiped by anyone for any reason. But, hey, I'm not telling you what religion to follow, or what faith to believe in, I'm just saying, if that's your idea of God, I feel freaking sorry for you.

I believe, as do all Mormons as far as I know, that any child that dies before the age of accountability is pure, sinless, and perfectly innocent, and will go to Heaven to live with a loving Heavenly Father forever and ever, with out end. No child that is aborted in the early stages will suffer in hell, period. The mother who chooses abortion might have to face some eternal consequences, but, I don't judge souls, that's God's jurisdiction. As far as I'm concerned, there usually is no good reason to abort, and so it's not the right decision, MOST of the time. But I cannot support any law that would absolutely ban all abortion, for any reason at all.

So, basically, I'm Pro Life and Pro Choice at the exact same time, without conflict, or very much anyway. There, berate me and hate me if you like, but that's how I feel and think about this whole thing. Have a great day, and stay out of trouble will ya?

.shorah b'shehmtee

Map of Uru/Myst Fans

2009-05-03T18:52:00.001-07:00

Hahaha, I love this idea, we can all see where everybody is. :) Ok, I'm on the map now too. Will you join in and show us all where you are?

Give

2009-05-02T17:43:00.002-07:00

I believe in sharing, in giving to others without requiring them to give back. People have given me so much in my life, and I am very grateful for everything I have received. I have a lot to deal with, as I'm sure you do too, and so I doubt you want to give anything at all to me. It's ok, you can if you want, I have a Donate button!

If you don't want to give anything at all, not even one dollar, fine, I won't push it. But I do have a number of issues I am having great difficulty dealing with, so I would be very happy to get any help at all. I am very glad I received an economic stimulus thingy, but the state wants half of that for taxes. :( The rest is going to have to go to bills. Which doesn't take care of much of my bills, believe me. I don't know what to do, and I'm only working 20 hours a week (officially), I'm taking home a very small paycheck. It's better than nothing, but still, absolutely not nearly enough.

I am a Gift Economist, I believe giving does more than just move money around, or redistribute resources, it brings people together and forges relationships. A gift economy can cause love and kindness to thrive and spread. But pure capitalism, in my humble opinion, fosters anger, distrust, selfishness, and can cause a lot of harm and poverty. Communism and Socialism are not the same thing as a gift economy, those are centralized systems that can quickly become horribly damaging repressive regimes.

A gift economy, or, as an economist guy I talked to calls it, a social capitalism, is not centralized, and depends largely on personal relationships, but does not necessarily require that. In any system, no matter what, there will be bad people doing bad things, and in a gift economy there will be takers who refuse to give for selfish reasons. But those people are dealt with, not with prison and other severe punishments, but with social separation, they generally will not have friends, will quickly lose friends, and therefore will quickly run out of resources. Theft, the taking of things that have NOT been given freely can still be punished more harshly, like with prison, but in a gift economy it seems to me theft would be very unlikely. There are people who will freely give to perfect strangers, just because giving feels good. There doesn't seem to be much reason at all for muggings or carjackings, in such a system.

I admit that a gift economy wouldn't scale up very well, too many people, too many strangers, not enough relationships forming in order to make the system work really well, but fortunately there is no need for any kind of violent revolution in order to get a gift economy up and running. All you need is liberty. The freedom to choose to give to someone, and the freedom not to give to someone, for whatever reasons you might have. As long as liberty lives and thrives, capitalism's damaging effects can be mitigated by giving. As long as people are giving, even if it's just a small thing that doesn't really matter to them, love and peace can thrive.

I believe in love, and I want peace for everyone.

.shorah b'shehmtee

Piracy is good

2009-04-30T20:23:00.002-07:00

I say Piracy is a good thing, and you know why? Ok, here is just one tiny example. I purchased music files on my phone, they downloaded, I was happy. My phone recently crashed, fried, then the next one, and the next one after that. I am now on my fourth phone in as many days. So I redownload the stuff I had downloaded, like apps and such. I put in my external card, which had my music on it, I try to play it, and the phone says it is trying to acquire the license for the song, then crashes. Here I am paniced that my phone has been fried yet again by a freakin song file! It does boot up again, but I get rid of the freakin .WMA music files that are protected against Piracy by Digital Rights Management, and load up the Pirated copies of those same songs that are all .MP3 files, not protected by DRM crap. Thanks Pirates! :) Now my phone doesn't crash when playing my music. Music I paid for, music I don't want to pay for again just to have on my phone again.

This is only one little example of why I am a pirate and will never not be a pirate. I will purchase music that I like, but I won't be using DRM crap ever again. The next time I purchase DRM protected songs, I'll pirate the unprotected versions and delete the DRM crap. Unless I figure out how to convert DRM protected songs to MP3, Ogg/Vorbis, FLAC, or something really weird like Monkey's Audio.

I am the kind of pirate that believes in sharing, as in giving without forcing people to give back, and if it weren't for good pirates like me, who actually buy stuff and share stuff with others, there would be no piracy. The bad pirates, I call bootlegers, sell illegal copies of stuff, which is something I would never do. But everybody lumps us together as being the same thing. Grabing a pirate copy of something I've already purchased isn't illegal, nor is sharing something I've purchased. But I don't think pirating is immoral or unethical at all, unless it's the bootleg form of piracy. Or worse, taking someone else's work, claiming it as your own, and making a huge proffit off it. Guess who does that? Microsoft! Believe it, or not, those guys are way worse pirates than I'll ever be.

Kleftik

2009-04-30T16:44:00.002-07:00

Dad and I have been combining ideas to create a great game, we are calling it Kleftik. I hope Dad figures out how to get a game maker to look at it. If they decide to publish it, woohoo, I hope people love playing it. We sure do. Wish us luck. :)

My Bag Design

2009-04-28T13:32:00.004-07:00

It's been Approved, woot! :) You can go take a look at it and vote now. But, whatever. You can buy it now too. I plan on buying a bag soon, yah! :)

Pandemic

2009-04-28T12:12:00.005-07:00

I keep hearing people saying that the swine flu is not a Pandemic, bla bla bla. I've looked up the definition in the dictionary. Everything in that definition is happening right now, not may happen, not could happen, is happening right the heck now! Why doesn't anyone look it up? Should I post the definition?

Pandemic is based on the Greek words Pan, meaning all, Demos, meaning People, and is defined as an epidemic of disease that spreads easily among people, is infectious (as in not cancer), and has spread to a large area like a continent, or the world. The facts are that this has spread to multiple countries, cannot be contained to any one area, is very infectious, and is killing people. Does this have to kill 2 billion people before someone finally say it's a Pandemic? I say, no, frak that. The word Pandemic has been defined, and all the things that have happened so far matches that definition. Therefore, this is a Pandemic.

Does that mean people should panic and run around like chickens with their heads cut off? Maybe. But maybe not. Maybe we will kick this thing in the head enough times to save a lot of lives and stop it from spreading any further. Maybe not. My upset is not whether this thing is coming to kill me, oh no no no, I'm obsessed and insane over the meaning of words and people not redefining them on the fly to suit the needs of the moment. Those needs being to stop scaring people crapless, I guess.

What? I'm insane? Yes! So what?

Fox News Channel

2009-04-22T14:33:00.002-07:00

I really can't watch fox news channel without getting very mad at them. Fair and balanced they are not. I love the Daily Show. Seems much more honest. I am not saying that any other media outlet is actually fair and balanced all the time, I'm just saying that if you make a claim, you better live up to it. FNC constantly claims they are fair and balanced. Sure, when they are reporting the weather and not blaming it on liberals. They constantly claim "we report, you decide", which is not true, they say stuff, slant it how they like, omit things they don't like, and leave it up to us to decide... decide what? That they are liars, that's what.

I think the news papers, radio and tv media are not News outlets, not really. I think news died a long time ago, due to boredom. I think it is an Infotainment industry, a business that sells information that is entertaining, sensational, grab you by the gut and hold on tight till you puke. The only real news is burried inside kernels of trickery and emotional candy, you have to filter and sift through the crap to get to the truth. The thing is, most people don't want to sift or filter, they want to get the entertainment, they want to consume. You heard me, the people of this great nation are not really citizens of anything, we are consumers. That's all we are, just tools for the vast corporate machines, we provide them what they want, they provide us what they think we want, and if we disagree and don't snap, why, like fish in a barrel, they blast something at us that makes us give them what they want anyway. Why should they care about things like Liberty and Justice, and Equality? We are nothing more than a herd, to be fattened, then slaughtered. But, hey, I'm just a nut.

So now you think I'm a liberal, right? Wrong! I'm not a liberal, left wing, nut, nor am I a conservative, right wing, nut. I'm just a nut, plain and simple! :) Seriously, I am so sick and tired of each side constantly attacking and demonizing the other side, while burying the truth about what is really going on, and who is really doing what. The government makes decisions behind closed doors so that we have no idea who is voting on what. The president, though very popular, is, IMHO, an idiot. But I thought the same about the previous president too, so don't get all huffy over it.

I'm not a conspiracy nut, like I said, I'm just a plain nut, maybe a bit salty, so I don't buy these conspiracies about the evil government. Sure, the government is full of corruption, but I believe it is much more full of stupidity and idiocy than anything else, and stupid people are much more likely to become corrupt. There, I said it, I think the government is run by morons who happen to be corrupt out of nothing more than stupidity and greed.

Greed, that's what is doing all the nasty horrible things to our economy, and the rest of the world, greed! Too many greedy buggers doing whatever they want, and nobody doing anything to stop them. A nation of laws?! Ha, I beg to differ. I think we are a nation of lunatics! Take that to the bank and shove it.

ARF!

No, I'm not a dog, I'm just crazy.

Shopping Bag

2009-04-21T11:34:00.005-07:00

I just created a shopping bag design, it is not yet available for public viewing and voting, but I put my obsession on it, with a little bit of mother earth stuff. Here is the pic. Epic silliness on my part, I know, but I'm too obsessed with Number Systems Conversion, and such. I must have this bag to tote around with me!

Ubuntu Countdown

2009-04-20T06:13:00.001-07:00

I have no idea how to install this applet into my website, or my blog, so, I'm just going to paste the text here till I figure out how.

Yay, Cansema is Back!

2009-04-15T19:33:00.002-07:00

Yay, I'm so happy that the people who make Cansema have managed to get back online, despite the evil, vile, horrible FDA attacks against them, woot! http://www.altcancer.com/ashwin/ashw0908.htm

Yes there is a cure for cancer, at least one, and very likely many more, though I haven't really researched them. As far as I'm concerned the FDA is complicit in a kind of corporate stranglehold on the people of the USA, and they do NOT have the public's interest in mind at all. They allow big pharma to do whatever they want, and attack anyone with real cures for diseases. There is no financial interest in the medical mainstream for cures for anything, there is instead huge interest in repeated and expensive treatments. They would rather turn cancer, or aids, or other life threatening diseases into "Manageable Diseases", so that we must depend on big pharma and the church of medicine to manage our diseases for us.

I am not saying that hospitals, doctors, and medicine makers are all bad, or that we shouldn't use them at all anymore, they save lives, they are a necessary part of our society. But there are bad apples, there is a lot of greed, and more than enough abuse to turn my stomach. These things should be seen in the light of truth. We need to clean up this situation, and do what's right.

Ok, I'm done with my rant.

MS?! Sure hope not.

2009-04-13T19:23:00.002-07:00

I was just watching House tonight, and someone said that Scandinavians are more likely to get MS, well that would include my whole family, frak! Ok, so I went and looked it up on Wikipedia, and read the list of symptoms, and such. Apparently I have nearly every symptom on the list, and have for many years. For instance, extreme random pain for no apparent reason, like I'm just sitting in a chair watching House, and suddenly my right pinky finger's top joint flares up in horrible pain, that takes my breath away. Then, a few minutes later, it's gone, and I'm fine. Parts of my face start twitching and won't stop, like my right eye, it's been twitching practically non stop for over a year now. Oh yes, there is that horrible migraine that lasted a whole month, non stop, after a head injury, which kept me from getting any sleep at all. I mean I'd nod off for a minute, and wake up again, no actual sleep. Which drove me nuts, till a neurologist at the hospital finally gave me really expensive meds that let me get the sleep I needed, and made the pain go away. I was in heaven! By expensive meds I mean pills that cost $90 per pill, and they came in a pack of like 20. I have had balance problems for several years too. And sometimes my speech gets slured, no idea why, it just gets real hard to form the words properly, which only started happening maybe 10 years ago. Oh yes, random muscle contractions all over my body, not just the twitching in my face, like my right eye that won't stop bothering me.

Some people have told me I'm a hypochondriac, well, I'm not. I have never lied about any of my symptoms, aches, pains, and such. Just a few weeks ago I suddenly fell backwards into my chest of drawers, no reason, I was just walking into my room, and suddenly it was like the floor moved out from under me, which it didn't of course. What happened is I utterly lost my balance for no apparent reason.

I have asthma, so I know my immune system is over reacting to things, so why wouldn't it start screwing with other things in my body? Why would it be so very impossible for it to attack my nervous system? I think this could be symptoms of MS, but I don't know for sure. When I'm typing on the computer, and one of my hands suddenly starts shaking uncontrollably, or when I'm sleeping and one of my arms starts flapping around waking me up, it's irritating. But it's not scary, or horribly painful. It's not like it keeps me from working or having fun. It's just annoying. But what if it might become something really bad? Meh, whatever.

I just hope I don't go blind some day, that would totally suck for me, since nearly everything I love involves SEEING, like blogging, reading sci-fi, watching Doctor Who. I just can't appreciate all that stuff if I can't see it. Maybe I could if I was born blind, and just learned how to use other senses and stuff. But I wasn't. It would be a big loss for me.

And I've had constipation and diahrea issues my whole life, which means nothing really, unless it's caused by MS, then it means something. So I'm irregular, so what, I can take fiber or something and I'm fine. Right? Man, being human is just plain nasty. Yuck. Who in their right mind would choose to be a human. We are way more disgusting than, like, trees. I want to be a tree. Big and tall, swaying in the breeze, soaking up sun, yah!

I doubt I have MS, but if I do, it's not bothering me a whole lot, yet. Naw, I worry a lot more about my bad knees and back, those hurt a lot, and don't seem to get better with time at all.

I need to lose this excess energy storage and build up my motion motivators. That means getting rid of fat and making more muscle. :) Hey, at least I know I've got issues, awareness is the first step to solving them.

Happy Easter! :)

2009-04-13T12:04:00.003-07:00

Happy Easter! :) Hey, even if you don't celebrate Easter, either the Christian thing or the cadbury bunny thing, you can at least appreciate the weather. Or, if you have terrible weather where you are, dream about the weather where I live, in the Valley of the Sun, Mesa, Arizona, hahaha. Oh it's so nice, but when summer comes around it will be murderously hot again. Hooo boy. Anyone who doesn't believe in air conditioning, do not, I repeat, do NOT come here during the summer, you will freakin die of heat stroke.

I do think the dry heat helps with evap cooling, but then the monsoon brings in lots of humidity, so that's gonna fail, always does.

I used to live in Florida. Nice place to visit, but living there sometimes became, well, damp and sticky, for looooong periods of time. I longed for the feeling of actually being dry. Of getting into an actually dry bed at night. I can't believe anyone would even consider using evap cooling there, but, they did. Or at least, my parents did. Blows my mind even now.

Ok, enough! Happy whatever, have a great something, and be joy infected! :)

My own web server

2009-04-12T04:59:00.002-07:00

Well, I am now running my own web server, for various reasons. I think it will not crash. Wawi is crashing, it just doesn't like serving up files for download for some reason. This web server I'm running now for various things is Abyss Web Server, I like using it, it works just fine. So, if for some reason my winamp source server crashes, maybe you can try playing my music using the following playlist file.

http://krepta.dontexist.net:8080/ml/ml.m3u

If that isn't working, then either the computer crashed, or someone logged me off and shut down everything I was running, or something similar. I can't run a dedicated 24/7 machine or server software, but I'll try to keep it running as much as possible. Ok, have fun.

Winds of Change

2009-04-10T13:29:00.003-07:00

The winds of change are blowing ever harder, I hope I can catch it and ride it to better times and places. Soon I will no longer be employed as a security officer with Thomas Protective Services, and perhaps that is a very good thing. Instead, I will be employed by a different security company, and hopefully in a desk job capacity, rather than a security officer capacity. The pain, or life threatening aspects, of this job have become too much for me, if they hadn't been already.

On another note, I've tried once again to get my internet radio station up and running. It might crash, or something, I dunno. If you want to try it out, I would be happy to provide my musical collection for your listening pleasure. The idea I had a long time ago was to create a radio station that anyone can control, you can search for something you like, and add it to the queue (I still don't understand why there are two "ue" things in that word), plus you can control what the source server is doing as if it is your own media player. I call it Full Range Motion, mostly because of all the options and wide range of musical selection available. Well, here are the links, hope the servers don't crash, hope you enjoy, have fun.

Winamp Control Interface http://krepta.dontexist.net:8008

MP3Pro stream http://krepta.dontexist.net:8000

Ogg/Vorbis stream http://krepta.dontexist.net:8015/live.ogg.m3u

Yet another math trick

2009-03-20T04:50:00.002-07:00

You know, by now, that I'm obsessed with numbers and math and stuff. Well I just learned a new little trick from the radio tonight while I was working. Ok, write down a tic-tac-toe thingy, you should have 9 spaces, write numbers 1-9 in them, top to bottom, left to right.

123
456
789

Now pick a number, any number, to start from, then move to a neighboring space, then another, etc., the number of spaces based on the number you picked, no moving diagonally or jumping around the board. So say I picked 3, I start from 3 and I choose to go to 2, then 5, then 6. That's three moves. Now cross out 3 and 9, because no one who is doing this trick can possibly end up on either 3 or 9. Now move 3 spaces, any way you like, but again no diagonal and no jumping around. Now cross out 2, 6, and 8, because no one can have landed on those. Now move one space, and you have landed on number 4. Tada!

It's not magic, it's logic. And logic is fun! :)

What's new, but not hip

2009-03-14T05:12:00.003-07:00

Well I'm on Twitter, and on Facebook, which I've been on for a while, apparently, man my memory is so full of holes. Also, I just created a tshirt on Zazzle.com, which is perfect, well not really, but it is exactly in line with my obsession with numbers. It's on http://www.zazzle.com/krepta3000* but I don't know what the asterisk is for. If you buy a shirt, or whatever, I'm gonna be really happy, but not rich. Oh, no, I'm not hip, or cool, or anything. I'm a geek, a nerd, a dork, whatever you want to call it. I'm really really smart, and stupid, at the same time, it's very frustrating. I'm not so good at art type stuff, so, whatever designs I do are going to probably be math and numbers related. meh.

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Hate infects CC

2009-02-11T09:41:00.002-07:00

You may not care about CyanChat, but it's been a virtual home for me since Uru died, for the second time. I care about it a lot, but I have a temper, and when people are mean to me enough, I snap. Well, I've ticked people off on CC to the point they don't want me around at all. I annoy them too much, they yell at me too much, always attacking me for the smallest things. I have no life, and I'm lonely, and I crave social interaction in the places I can get it. I guess I have to find another home. Also, I have been fired from my day job, my other little home away from home, a place where I made friends I could talk to, have a good time. My world is falling appart. Do you know the feeling? Well, it doesn't really matter anyway, it's all virtual, not real, just shadows inside masks. The whole world is shadows behind masks. Reality isn't real at all, only a facade. I will start again, shape a new reality around myself, I will be reborn from these ashes. I will find a new Obsession.

American Public Education

2008-12-24T01:56:00.001-07:00

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My experience with the public education system is, well, a painful memory, a time in my life I wish I could relive very differently. And the above seems to sum up how I feel about it all. Go American Public Education, Go! Yay!

Protoculture Addict

2008-12-20T02:48:00.002-07:00

For those of you who don't know, thanks to my friend Sypoth, whose real name I will not say here, I have become a Protoculture Addict! He started showing me various funny parts of the Robotech books he was reading, till I just couldn't take it anymore and had to read the series, now I'm reading them faster than he is, and he is having a hard time making sure to lend me a book to read before I'm done with the current one. Maybe I should just go to the library and check out three books at a time like I used to, like over a year ago, before I started working two jobs at the same time, one of which causes agony and injury, the other which just sometimes annoys me.

I really enjoy working at Higginbotham Associates, the people are so nice, and that's where I make the greatest friends, like Sypoth, that crazy genius! He is an inventor, and much of what he shows me and explains is over my head, but I try to understand at least the basic concepts he is trying to express. He is a computer genius, a whole pay grade above me I'm afraid. I'm sure that if he had attended the same computer class I had at High Tech Institute, we would have been fierce competitors for the top spot. But, I've gotten very rusty from not using my computer knowledge and skills.

Well, back to Protoculture. In the Robotech series, which I am also watching on DVDs Sypoth lends to me, there is this amazing power source that causes normal technology to kind of take on living properties, which they call Robotech. That power source, though they have difficulty understanding it, much less creating it, is Protoculture, it's like the Mana of the Gods, the Power that drives all Interstellar exploration and conquest, and yes, even war. The Robotech series took three seperate anime shows and kind of changed things a bit, made it much better IMHO, and put it out as a great new retelling of the original story. Protoculture is called that becuase it is basically a seed of the Flower of Life, which has amazing powers locked up inside, and it's just Bursting to grow at amazing speed, but if you somehow manage to force that seed to stay dormant, not grow, for a period of time, it's latent energies burst out of it empowering technology, and organic beings alike, with absolutely shocking capabilities. In the Original stories, beginning with Macross, Protoculture is actually the Culture that existed before all other Cultures, the First Race of sentient beings in the universe, capable of amazing wonders, but, their civilization fell appart when they gained the ability to reproduce without sex. The males and the females no longer wanted anything to do with each other, love became a forgotten memory, and the two genders began to war with each other, causing devestating destruction accross the galaxy. Well, I guess that's enough spoiling. Go read and watch Robotech and Macross, etc. etc.

Go, Go, what are you still doing here?

The Invalid Time

2008-12-12T12:16:00.002-07:00

What I am about to tell you here in this post is something I was told by my boss, not just some guy somewhere, and I must obey. But it has been driving me insane for weeks now. It's only a tiny difference of one minute one way, or the other, no big deal, right? I guess I'm like Detective Monk on the USA Network, I'm obsessed.

Here it is, and forgive me if I have already talked about this, but I just don't remember doing so. I work as a Security Guard, as you may already know, and our reports must always be written using Military, aka 24-hour, time, ie anything after 12pm is 12 plus whatever it is, so 1pm is 12 plus 1, 1300. The 24 hour clock makes more logical sense than the 12 hour clock most people use, because it always starts at 0. There is a reason someone invented the concept of 0, and it revolutionized the world. Look at any numbering system used by any culture that has no concept at all of the number 0, are they still around, much less advanced in their social development or technology? I say, NO. If you disagree, well, find a door and use it. Ok, back on track here, when you are writing 24 hour time, you always use 4 digits to indicate the time, as above, with no : in between the minutes and hours, and when you Say the time you say it as if all the numbers indicated hours, like thirteen hundred hours, or fourteen thirty hours. I think that was intended to confuse people who had no idea what was really going on. In any case, 24 hour time is always used in all official documents the likes of which have legal weight. They must therefore be extremely accurate, precise, and detailed.

Now the thing that drives me mad, mad I say! If I write down a time stamp of either 0000 or 2400, the judge will state that this is an invalid, invalid mind you, time and that therefore the entire document is inadmissible in court. So I have to write down a time of either 2359, or 0001. Oh, I can't write 2401, since in fact a 24 hour clock does not use 24 as the begining of the new time cycle, it's actually always 0. Now, you may think I'm wrong, and you would be stupid if you did, but if the time 0001 is valid then so is 0000.

There is no logical reason whatsoever to invalidate 0000 as the time given for any particular event being reported. If 0000 is an invalid time, then the entire 24 hour time system in use by every military, or civilian police organization in this entire country is also invalid. Prove me wrong, why don't you? And if something happens at exactly midnight, and I report that it happened either 1 minute before, or after, that time, I have, in effect, lied on an official report, which when it comes to doing something in court is either tampering with evidence, abstruction of justice, or some other illegal thing, I dunno. The point is it's wrong to do it, even if it is only one tiny minute one way or the other. And I will not participate in any such thing, I guess I'm too honest for my own good, but I believe in honesty and integrity above all else.

I will probably be found to be in contempt of court, but, I think I've got a bad enough temper, and that I'm insane enough, to actually call any judge who invalidates 0000, an abject moron not fit to serve in our justice system. I would elaborate in great detail as to exactly how stupid that judge is, and why it is a miracle that the judge is actually still alive, seeing as how brain function must have ceased some time ago. Then I would indicate my willingness to commit an act of violence at exactly midnight so that I could get away with it, since any report or evidence indicating the event occuring at exactly midnight would be invalid and therefore inadmisible in court. And then I would laugh histerically as they drag me off to a cell, where I would then bang my head against anything solid enough to hurt. Also, being in prison would likely cause my fragil mind to break in half, spewing all manner of nonsense imaginable, and there would be no way of predicting my behavior from that point on.

You think I'm kidding don't you? You don't think I'm that crazy, or stupid, to actaully defy a judge in his or her court room, don't you? Well, maybe you are right, maybe I would miraculously stop myself, and actually manage to stay out of trouble. But I doubt it.

That's my rant for now, stay tuned for more insane ramblings, because this is Krepta's Life, brought to you by unknown chemical processes best left in the dark!

Politics

2008-10-27T21:51:00.002-07:00

Politics gives me really bad headaches, much like economics and a couple other things. Unfortunately for me, there is a lot of both politics and economics infringing on my peace of mind a LOT lately. So, I feel it necessary to release some of my thoughts here, maybe my head will hurt less.

My church has been pushing very hard to have us vote for a constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage. Well I already voted, and although I really do NOT want to discuss it in person with anyone at church, or with my family, I voted NO. I'll tell you why if you are still reading. It's because I am a Libertarian. I don't care how many consequences you may perceive will occur in the future from allowing people to be free in a free country, but that IS what I will defend, if not with my body and life, at least with my votes.

You may hate me, or call me a heretic, if you wish, but I believe in Liberty and Justice for All, and nothing, not God, not Government, not Anything or Anyone will convince me to sacrifice those. So some kids are being taught to have more tolerance by the public schools, oh well, scary. Maybe instead of banning gay marriage we should just have them all imprisoned or shot. How far are we willing, as a nation, or a people, to go to make ourselves feel comfortable with the world around us? Who are we willing to hurt, or destroy? I am not willing to reshape the world to make myself feel better. I'll accept my own discomfort or disgust as being the price I pay, and gladly, for a free society. How about you?

Full Range Motion Control

2008-09-14T20:29:00.003-07:00

I've given up on running my own internet radio station, at least until I manage to buy a good desktop.

Rehzeero != The Great Zero, Orthodoxy and canon vs. logic

2008-09-12T04:55:00.006-07:00

I realize that I am obsessed, which by definition is illogical, but I obsessively need things to make logical sense to me. So when someone does something that makes no sense, I get very upset. I am very upset that the creator of something is "right" no matter what they do, because they say so. That is just wrong!

So, my reason for this post is Cyan/DRC screwing around with their creation, doing things that are very illogical. There is a place in the deep city we call Uru, which is D'ni, that has been called "The Great Zero", but the DRC/Cyan put the word "Rehzeero" in the Nexus and KI devices as the D'ni word for the place, and said that no one knows what that word means. It seems obviouse to me that they took the word Zero, and slapped the D'ni word for "the", reh, on the front and claimed it is a D'ni word. I call that D'ninglish. After researching and learning the D'ni language a bit, I've figured out that the proper way to say "The Great Zero" in D'ni should be "rehroon pahrah", or "rehroon gahro". Even though someone at Cyan said that "rehgahro zeero" was proper use of the D'ni sentence structure, this is NOT true. You can't invent a language, with logical sentence structure, then break that structure and claim that's proper. IT MAKES NO SENSE!!

So, even though everything Cyan sais and does is "right" because they Say so, and is Orthodox and Canon, they are still Wrong! What kind of world would it be like when someone can control absolute truth like that? Where they can setup something, tell everyone THAT is the truth, and the way things are, then totaly break it, screw with it, and claim that THAT is absolute truth now, and that the other way was totally wrong, or maybe that Both versions are truth, even though they conflict horribly. Arrrgh! That's the kind of thing the Catholic Church did long ago, way back in what is aptly called the Dark Ages. It wasn't dark because the sun didn't shine ya know. It was dark cause THINKING was basically illegal. Nations filled with Morons! Well I refuse to stop thinking, or arguing against things that make no sense at all, just because someone else sais so.

I am right, rehzeero != The Great Zero. Either that structure and system that is the Beating Heart of D'ni is NOT The Great Zero at all, and no one knows what the heck the english translation of rehzeero is, OR they stupidly d'nified an english word, zero, because they wanted to call it The Great Zero and were not thinking at all about the language they invented.

Don't get me wrong, I love all things having to do with D'ni and Myst, I just obsessively need, I mean NEEEEEEEED, things to make logical sense, even though being obsessed about something that makes no difference in the world, or my life, is quite insane and illogical. Please, for crying out loud, I'm begging you Cyan/DRC, either admit that it is NOT The Great Zero at all, that this is a totally wrong thing to call it, and come up with an english translation of rehzeero that makes sense, or abandon this stupid D'ninglish word and call it what it Should be called, rehroon gahro or rehroon pahrah! Please! Please! PLEASE!!!

chucker, shut up, I don't need to hear you saying I have no point. Paradox, I know, Cyan is "right" because they say so. Anyone else? Whatever you have to say about it has already been said, I'm sure, but you can say more in the comments if you like. I just need to get this off my chest in a place where no one will Delete it because it's heresy to speak against Cyan.

Heretic Krepta signing off.

Full Range Motion

2008-09-04T19:30:00.002-07:00

My internet radio station is kind of sort of up and running again. Who knows how long I can keep it up. I used to run it all the time, I really enjoyed it, and I had a lot of neat things set up and working. Then things started crashing left and right, and things got out of hand, and I just gave up. Well, it's a fresh new day! I'm trying to get things working again. Right now it is just one single audio stream, stereo, MP3Pro. At least, it should be working right. *sigh* Hope someone enjoys my music as much as I do, that's why I am running the station.

No more gloom

2008-08-25T04:40:00.003-07:00

I am very happy again, my paycheck has increased due to more hours, and I'm able to pay bills again, yay! :) I won't be quitting either job any time soon. I really enjoy working at Higginbotham Associates, it's a fun environment, with lots of interesting people to chat with, which I really like a lot. The pay structure is different every week, I guess I already explained that at some point before, but, it makes things interesting. Plus, I get to be a nut, and no one will fire me for it, that's a big plus! :) Sadly, one of my chat buddies was fired, reason unknown, but I can guess. He probably got caught purposely putting in "Busy signal" instead of removing numbers from the calling system when the person called requests it. Look, when you tell someone remove my Name from the list, but they have no idea what your name is, can you really expect them to remove your name which they never had in the first place? Anyway, when someone says something to the effect "don't call me anymore" we are supposed to remove the number from the system, that's Code 21 people! *sirens blare*

I'm having fun with my Numbers Obsession still. One of these days I'll get up the courage to call Coast to Coast AM and say "Shorah b'shehm everybody!" and explain my obsession and why I think the D'ni are real and wish I could get my hands on a Linking Book. *sigh*

Are you having fun reading my insane blog? Well, please do. It's meant for anyone ages 90 and bellow... well, ok, all ages! :) Oh, don't mind me, I'm harmless... <.< >.>

GO!

Screwed again

2008-07-18T21:48:00.004-07:00

Maybe I'm just asking to be screwed all the time. Anyway, I've been working as a Security Guard, and recently they've reduced my hours to 20 a week, plus 3 patrols a day, 3 days a week, $15 a day for each one of those 3 days. That's not hourly wage, mind you. So that's 20*$9/hr=$180/week +$15*3=$45/week, so that's $225/week. That's really hurting. If it gets much worse I'll have no choice but to quit and find something else. Should I quit my job?

I forgot to mention a big reason why I may have to quit. This last Teusday the 15th I had Jury Duty at 8am. I asked my boss if I could have monday night off so I wouldn't be really tired. He said no, because I wouldn't be out all night, I'd only be doing the 3 patrols. Well I did the patrols, and went home as usual, and didn't get any sleep. I told the judge that I thought it would be too hard for me to be a juror, because of lack of sleep. He didn't think my boss had a right to keep me from jury duty by not letting me off. But the only reason he excused me was because of financial hardship. And that was only because the prosecution and defense had no objection.

I just found out I'm worse off than I thought at first. I'm making only $5 per day for those 3 days of patrols. And I saw a timesheet from another guard that is even Worse off than I am, nothing but patrol days all week! That's 5 days at $5 per day, with two days off. WTF?!

First Security Trust Bank

2008-07-17T21:31:00.002-07:00

This is not an advertisement, I just wanted to mention this bank. Although they did misspell my last name, they are correcting the problem. For some reason they have a toll free #, but they have not put it on there website or anything. So I'm going to post it here, 1-877-705-1894. They supposedly don't charge overdraft fees, which is why I want to check them out. I hope they do as they claim.

Grandpa Lenny Ingebrigtsen

2008-07-14T19:47:00.003-07:00

My sister, Tamra, just found this awesome Museum and they have my Grandpa listed, Yay! I hope they do more than just put his name somewhere. This is just so awesome!

A new obsession: Dvorak

2008-07-13T20:19:00.002-07:00

I recently heard about a keyboard layout that is faster and more efficient than the standard layout I have always used. I also heard that the standard we use was invented to SLOW you down, because typewriters had arms that would strike a paper, and if you typed too fast, they would get jammed up. So I printed the Dvorak layout, and rearranged the keys on my keyboard and laptop. Telling my Ubuntu Linux to switch between the Dvorak and standard layouts was very easy, unlike on Windows XP. I've been using Dvorak for a couple weeks now. I'm using it right now! Once you learn it, it's really easy. Dad thinks I'm nuts. It's just my newest Obsession! :D

Here is a screenshot of my desktop.

How I would run HA

2008-04-28T11:25:00.000-07:00

Now don't think that I know how to run a business, I'm absolutely NOT management material, IMHO, but, I have ideas for how to improve things all the time, and maybe some of them might be good ideas. So, let's start with Higginbotham Associates, where I work on the phone at one of two phone centers calling people to do surveys. These are just my ideas below, nothing to get angry about, sheesh. My ideas do not necessarily reflect things Wrong with Higginbotham Associates, some are just general suggestions for Any business. Again, no getting mad, gosh.

1) Employees come and go and work at will, no set schedule, no paid lunch period, unless they set and keep a Reservation, like at a restaurant. If you set a Reservation, as in you schedule ahead of time when you will start work, when you will take lunch break, etc., you will get paid lunch and paid breaks, plus a Reservation Bonus of some amount, like $5/day, but only as long as you Stick to your Reservation. If you break your Reservation, as in you're late for work or late getting back from break or something, you lose paid lunch, paid breaks, and your Reservation Bonus for THAT DAY ONLY. You can try again the next day. Reservations must be set a week in advance, and your Reservation also Reserves a Seat, or Workstation, for you for that specific time period, which will be posted along with your name and employee number at each workstation. That's what the week in advance is for, to give time to post stuff. You get paid for what you do, paid for how long you work, etc., just as is done right now anyway.

2) Survey Bonus structure is split into Sections of a survey completed, some of these surveys take a long time, my longest was about an hour and a half, and it seems entirely unfair to do that much work only to have to reschedule it because the Qualified Respondent is unable to finish at that time, then when someone else finishes the survey you did all that work on, THEY get the Bonus for Completing the Survey. So, Survey Section Bonus PLUS Survey Complete Bonus structure. Like $2 per section, and $3 for Completion, or something. I'm not a programmer, don't know how to setup something like this, but surely such tracking CAN be done.

3) Ceiling Fans on every floor, every room, they save a lot on electricity, it's a proven fact, and help keep the temperature moderated by keeping the air circulating well. Good circulation is very beneficial for everyone.

4) Pleasant Lighting, like windows and skylights, soft lights, no more harsh fluorescents!

5) A NICE Break Room with Nice cushioned seats, for every building, for all employees, period.

6) Good Back/Lumbar Support for every employee, good ergonomics for computer workstations, period.

7) Health care coverage, and dental, for all employees, effective as soon as possible after start of employment. Healthy employees work better, work longer, stay with the company, well worth the investment. Unless you like high turn around rate, burning out, using up, throwing away employees by the dozens every week, having to train new people All the time, a never ending meat grinder. I personally think that's bad for business, and bad for the economy as a whole. So no meat grinder.

My disclaimer for all this is that I'm not a businessman, I am not management, and I'm an idiot. Take all of this with a grain of salt, or two, or a pound.

Update time, or something

2008-04-09T05:27:00.002-07:00

Well I am still happily employed at two jobs, as a security guard at one, and a professional telephone annoyer at the other. If you get a phone call saying "Hello, I'm Aaron with Higginbotham Associates, I'm not trying to sell anything, I'm just trying to do a (brief) survey for your community. Have I reached you at your residence?" you will probably want to get very mean and say horrible things and hang up on me. Well please don't. I don't earn much unless I complete, that's COMPLETE, surveys. A few questions done means nothing at all as far as bonuses. And I'm making minimum wage if I don't get bonuses. But that's only if I'm never even one minute late getting to work, or getting back from break. If I am, I lose 75% of my bonus money for that week. So let's say I come in two minutes late on the first day of the work week, which is always tuesday. I automatically get only 25% of my bonus money from that point on for the rest of the week. A typical bonus is like $3 per survey completed. Gee, what's 1/4th of $3? Ooo, that's only 75 cents per survey, on top of minimum wage. And oh yah, if the person I'm talking to likes to yammer a lot about thier life when I'm trying to get them to answer my survey questions as efficiently as possible, the survey could take twice as long, at least. The shortest time I have is like 12 minutes. The longest time I had, because of a very very chatty person who kept complaining about how long it was taking, was like 2 hours. OMFG!!! Serisously, who in thier right mind wants to take that long on a survey, sure as heck not the one asking the questions!

Ok, so I've been very very sick, nearly to death, for about three weeks, and I'm suffering financially from the whole not working thing. I hate that. Seriously, I may complain about work, but I can't stand not working. I love having a job, it gives me purpose in life, when I can't work, I get really bad headaches from worrying about the not working. I can't just sit back and enjoy the lack of working. It drives me nuts.

BTW my rel.to link changed to point at my blog instead of at my numeric obsession, a new link was created for that. So now you get to my blog at http://rel.to/krepta and my obsession at http://rel.to/kreptano. If you don't like that, oh well, whatever, rel.to isn't my site, it's just an awesome portal to all things D'ni and Myst run by someone else, that's all.

And now, for a true rant! Do Not Believe the Lies told by the pharmacuetical companies about heartburn, acid reflux disease, and gurd, or whatever, and the supposed cure they claim to be antacids. Do NOT take antacids, unless you want to be hooked on them. They set you up for a painfull fall. Here is my explanation for my insane rant! A while ago I decided to start taking Tums, because of the calcium, I need it since I don't drink milk as I'm alergic to it. I had never had a problem with heartburn before, and I didn't think anything was wrong with eating a couple tums in the morning. Much to my painfull surprise, I began to have heartburn every evening before bed, so I would take tums. Then I had heart burn in the morning so I took tums. Then I had heartburn in the afternoon, so I... yes, took tums. The heartburn kept getting more painful, and I also started having really painful abdominal cramps and constipation. Finally I figured out my problems all started when I started taking tums. So I stopped, cold turkey, and just suffered through the constipation, cramps, and heartburn. Oh yes, it hurt, it hurt and hurt like the word hurt had lost it's meaning and gained a whole new dictionary definition. When finally it subsided and my system returned to normal, I decided to research this thing that happened. Now I Know, and I'm telling you the truth and the facts! READ!

Heartburn and acid reflux disease and gurd are all the same thing, indigestion. Ever had a backed up toilet? Ever had a backed up sink? Stinks doesn't it? This is what is happening to you, your digestive system is not breaking things down and moving it along properly, so it's backing up, and what happens to that acid that is trying hard to get that stuff moving? It's comming up your throught and it burns and hurts. They are Lying to you when they tell you that your problem is that you are making too much acid. Nonsense! Did you know that one of the most common side effects of antacids is constipation?! You are BACKING UP YOUR SYSTEM when you take antacids. So, you take an antacid, it does NOT shut down the acid making little pump things in your stomach, it acts as a chemical off switch for the acid itself, I believe that is called a Base, I am not sure. The thing that Makes the acid only knows one thing, stuff isn't getting digested very well, must make more acid. So they rev up the acid production. So what happens when the antacid can no longer counteract the acids in your stomach, AND the acid makers have been trying their hardest to speed up and increase acid production? Heartburn times 2, or more!!! So you go take some more antacid to fight back! STOP Attacking your own body! OMG, seriously.

So, you are wondering what the frak you should do about your painful heartburn to make it stop eating up your throught. Well, that's easy. HELP your digestive system digest and move stuff along. What do you think happens when a residential septic system gets backed up. I've seen it on a movie, nasty stuff comes up in the back yard, they have to dig up the yard, remove the tank or whatever, and replace it. Horrible. Now, normally a septic system has stuff in it to help break down the crap you flush so it can move along. What happens when you poor, I dunno, toxic chemicals that kill the stuff that is supposed to break stuff down? Back up like crazy. I've seen an ad on TV for stuff to flush that will Help your septic system break stuff down. THAT my friend is what you should do to keep things moving.

So, how do you help your digestive system? Well, one way is to eat something called digestive enzymes, but I've also found out that something acidic really helps get things going. A little Apple Cider Vinegar, nasty horrible stuff that burns all the way down, will absolutely cure your heart burn, and you will be heart burn free for weeks if not more after just one dose. You think I'm kidding? I'm not. This is the truth about antacids, they attack and destroy your ability to digest. Indigestion IS what causes acid to reflux, or back up. Stop attacking your body, Help your body instead. For crying out loud.

Ok, I'm done with my rant. Have a nice day.

Employedness!!! :)

2007-11-22T09:07:00.000-07:00

I have a job, woot! I am now with the employedness I wanted so much, at Higginbotham Associates which means I call people and somehow convince them to do a survey for me. I get paid minimum wage unless I complete a survey. The goal is 1 survey per hour, but I have yet to achieve that at all. The most I get in a day is 4 surveys. I get paid a bonus for each survey completed, which is based on which city I'm calling, and is dependent on how badly we need them done, I think. So like if we are Almost at the quota we need for a particular city, or we are getting to the end of the deadline for completing it, the bonus will go up. I think. So far the bonus is higher for cities that are nearly impossible to get a survey in. We are assigned cities to call, and times to stop calling those cities, so I can't just do whatever city I feel like. And I just decided to get a security guard job through Thomas Protective Services at $9/hr because the recruiter was very persuasive, and because I'm not getting enough surveys. But I think I want to try to juggle the two jobs, something I've never done before. And my brother who works at University of Phoenix wants me to apply for an open position in Desktop Support, which I'm trained for and like doing a lot. So maybe I'll wave bye to the security job... which is another thing I've never done before. This is crazy stuff I've never gone through before, all of a sudden I've got all these opportunities to choose from! And yes, I'm still obsessed with numbers, etc.

Still unemployed

2007-10-01T01:09:00.000-07:00

Well, if you are reading my blog, I'm amazed. Who are you? Never mind, maybe it's best I don't know. Anyway, I'm still Unemployed, and maybe at one of the mid points of my depression cycle. I am obsessed, and therefore must dump the contents of my brain in order to get some kind of peace. My Brain Dump is a collection of thoughts, and insane ramblings, but mostly links to files that my insane ramblings elsewhere can link to. Hahaha... Ahem. Yes, I do post messages, numerous and large, on Forums and BBSes and such. If you find me, don't hurt me, I'm fragile. Don't hate me, I'm an idiot. I'm also probably a bit of a Savant. I probably have a form of Autism. No, I will not continue to type, I'm too tired.

2007-09-18T09:40:00.000-07:00

AI.log
05/23/2007

1015 Arrived at the office
1030 on shift, defrag standalone1
1056 Printed 25 Order Forms
1105 Answered Ad-line, emergency restroom break
1141 Took personal call regarding A+ Cert
1215 Web Dev learning
1218 Leads counting/sorting
1225 break
1235 Leads Counting/sorting
1246 Install QuickBooks 6
1248 Leads Counting/sorting
1333 Answered Ad-line
1335 Leads Counting/sorting
1405 Answered Ad-line, Leads Counting/sorting
1430 Lunch
1500 Leads Counting/sorting
1508 Took message about ad space in Newyork Times Phoenix
1509 Leads Counting/sorting
1600 Leads Counting/sorting
1700 Leads Counting/Sorting
1800 Off shift

05/24/2007

1009 Arrived
1032 On Shift
1045 Delivered Mail to mailbox
1048 Counted and Totaled PIFs
1104 Website dev
1200 Data Entry
1256 Finished Data Entry stack
1300 Studying
1400 Studying
1405 Data Entry
1430 lunch
1500 Data Entry
1600 Data Entry
1700 Data Entry
1800 Off Shift

05/25/07

1030 On Shift, Data Entry
1100 Data Entry
1200 Data Entry
1246 break
1301 Data Entry
1400 Data Entry
1430 Lunch
1500 Data Entry
1600 Data Entry
1700 Data Entry
1730 OFF SHIFT EARLY

05/28/07

1030 On shift, Data Entry
1100 Data Entry, Ad line
1200 Data Entry, Ad line
1300 Data Entry, Ad line, study
1400 Ad line, study
1430 Lunch
1500 Ad line, study
1515 Fry's Electronics shopping and installing
1600 Still installing
1631 Ad line, Data Entry
1700 Data Entry, Ad line
1800 Data Entry, Ad line
1826 Server crash recovery
1830 Ad line
1900 End of Shift

05/29/07

1030 Ad line
1100 Install MS Works properly on Standalone1, Ad line
1200 Ad line, Installed Barcode Reader
1300 Ad line
1400 Data Entry, Ad line
1430 LUNCH, Ad line
1500 Data Entry, Ad line
1600 Ad line, computer maintenance
1700 Data Entry, Ad line
1800 Off Shift

05/30/07

1030 On Shift, Ad line, Webcam reset, Barcode Reader setup
1100 Ad line, CSR, website study/design
1200 Ad line, CSR, Website study/design, Barcode setup
1300 Ad line, CSR, website study/design
1400 Ad line, CSR, website study/design
1430 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line, website study/design
1600 Ad line, website study/design
1700 Ad line
1800 off shift

05/31/07

1030 On shift, Ad line, CSR
1100 Ad line, CSR
1200 Ad line, CSR
1300 Ad line, CSR
1400 Ad line, CSR
1430 LUNCH, Ad line
1500 Ad line, CSR
1600 Ad line, CSR, Website study/dev
1700 Ad line, CSR, Website study/dev
1800 off shift

06/01/07

1030 Ad line, CSR, webcam
1100 Ad line, CSR, webcam
1200 Ad line, CSR, webcam
1300 Ad line, CSR
1400 Ad line, CSR, webcam
1400 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line, CSR, webcam, PC troubleshooting
1600 Ad line, CSR, webcam, PC troubleshooting
1700 Ad line, CSR, webcam
1800 Ad line, CSR, webcam

06/04/07

1030 On shift, Ad line, CSR
1100 Ad line
1200 Ad line, Leads Inventory
1300 Ad Line, Leads Inventory, Watch Floor, Barcode X
1400 Ad line, Leads Inventory
1430 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line
1600 Ad line
1700 AD LINE, DATA ENTRY
1800 AD LINE, DATA ENTRY
1900 OFF SHIFT

06/05/07

1030 On shift, Ad line, Data Entry
1100 Ad line, Data Entry
1200 Ad line, Data Entry
1300 Ad line, Data Entry
1400 Ad line, Data Entry
1430 LUNCH, Ad line
1500 Ad line, Data Entry
1600 Ad line, Data Entry
1700 Ad line, Data Entry
1800 OFF SHIFT

06/06/07

1030 Ad line
1100 Ad line, Printing Scripts
1200 Ad line
1300 Ad line, Data Entry Corrections
1400 Ad line, Data Entry Corrections
1430 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line, Data Entry Corrections
1600 Ad line, Data Entry Corrections
1700 Ad line, Data Entry Corrections
1800 Ad line, Data Entry, and Corrections, Trash
1900 off shift

06/07/07

1030 On shift, Ad line
1100 Ad line, Database Edit
1200 Ad line, Database Edit
1300 Ad line
1400 Ad line
1430 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line
1600 Ad line
1700 Ad line
1800 off shift

06/08/07

1030 On shift, Ad line, Gas Prices
1100 Ad line
1200 Ad line
1300 Ad line, Database Corrections, Data Entry
1400 Ad line, Data Entry
1430 lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line, Database Corrections
1600 Ad line, Database Corrections, Data Entry
1700 Ad line, Data Entry, Scripts for new Leads
1800 Ad line, Scripts for new Leads
1900 off shift
Corrected Orders: 234, 476, 2589, 2591-2597, 2602-2611, 2614-2615, 2631-2660, 2662-2663, 2665, 2667-2688, 2690-2699, 2830, 2914
Entered Orders 3139-3155, 3162

06/11/07

1030 On shift, Ad line, BarcodeX
1100 Ad line
1200 Ad line, Data Entry
1300 Ad line, Data Entry
1400 Ad line, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line, Database Corrections
1600 Ad line, Database Corrections
1700 Ad line
1800 off shift
Entered Orders 3100, 3183-3197, 3199-3212

06/12/07

1030 On shift, Ad line
1100 Ad line
1200 Ad line
1300 Ad line
1400 Ad line
1430 Lunch, Ad line
1500 Ad line
1600 Ad line, Data Entry
1500 Ad line, Data Entry
1600 Ad line, Data Entry
1700 Ad line, Data Entry
1800 off shift
Entered Orders: 3213-3231

06/13/07

1000 At site, waited outside
1100 waited outside
1123 On shift, Ad line
1200 Ad line, CSR
1300 Ad line, CSR
1400 Ad line, CSR
1430 Lunch, Ad line, CSR
1500 Ad line, CSR
1600 Ad line, CSR
1700 Ad line, CSR
1800 off shift

06/14/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev (brain smash)
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev (brain smash)
1200 Ad lines, Web Dev (brain smash)
1300 Ad lines, Web Dev (brain smash), Data Entry
1400 Ad lines, Data Entry
1430 Ad lines, Lunch
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1800 off shift
Entered Records: 3256-3283

06/15/07

1030 On Shift, Ad lines, CSR, Database Corrections
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Database Corrections
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Database Corrections
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR, FAX data
1700 Ad lines, CSR, FAX data
1800 Ad lines, CSR
1900 of shift
Corrected Orders: 3100, 3139-3155, 3162, 3183-3197, 3199-3212, 3256-3283

06/18/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1600 Ad lines, CSR, scanning, leads processing, barcode x
1700 Ad lines, CSR, leads processing, barcode x
1800 OFF SHIFT

06/19/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Leads
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Leads, Web Dev
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 Ad lines, CSR
1800 off shift

06/20/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Off Shift Early
Entered Records 3306-3324

06/21/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, Verification
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Verification
1430 Lunch
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Verification, Printer Verification
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1800 off shift
Entered Records 3345-3363, 3381-3393, 3395-3411

06/22/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Web Dev
1800 off shift

06/25/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Copies, Web Dev
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Copies, Web Dev
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, Send Billing Statements
1430 LUNCH, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Send Billing Statements, Enter Invoice Checks, Process Mailed Cancellations
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Send Billing Statements
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Send Billing Statements
1800 off shift
Entered Records: 3421

06/26/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, Copies
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, computer troubleshooting
1200 Ad lines, CSR, computer troubleshooting
1300 Ad lines, CSR, computer troubleshooting
1400 Ad lines, CSR, computer troubleshooting
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Computer Troubleshooting
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, INCIDENT
1800 off shift
Entered Records: 3424-3461
Incident Report:
06/26/07 1730
The Next Door Neighbor walked into office premises, without permission, to ask Me to have the radio turned down.
I walked out of my office and told Berny he had asked us to turn down the radio, because the base was a bit too loud.
She said something to the effect "Oh he did NOT just ask us to turn the radio down, not with all the banging and hollering and noise They've been making while we are trying to work on the Phones." She then turned the radio up Blasting loud, and all of the Phone workers, including Berny were yelling and making a racket. I proceeded immediately to Lock the inner Door.
The neighbor came over and Pounded on and kicked the door yelling to be let in, calling us all horrible names, cussing us out, a Fight nearly ensued.
He claimed he was going to call the Police on us. If the Police come I am to be the Floor Supervisor on the site, and deal with the Police, I am not to allow the others to have contact with the Police, because some of them are on Parole.
My chest pain has suddenly increased, despite the pills I've taken today.

06/27/07
1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, Envelope Printing
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Envelope Printing
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Send Billing Statements
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements
1800 off shift
Entered Records:3462-3475, 3479-3489

06/28/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements
1430 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements, Lunch
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe, Envelope Printing, Send Billing Statements
1700 off shift

06/29/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup and Wipe, OS Install/Quick Restore
1400 Ad lines, CSR, OS Install/Quick Restore
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR, OS Install/Quick Restore
1500 Ad lines, CSR, OS Install/Quick Restore
1600 Ad lines, CSR, OS Install/Quick Restore [Completed]
1700 Ad lines, CSR
1800 Ad lines, CSR
1900 off shift

07/02/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 off shift
Entered Records:3490-3520

07/03/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, Print Order Forms
1800 off shift
Entered Records:3521-3591

07/05/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 off shift

07/06/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 off shift

07/09/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Copying
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Copying
1730 off shift
Entered Records: 3592 - 3620

07/10/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, copying
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, copying
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Copying/printing
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Copying/printing
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Copying/printing
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Copying/printing
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Copying/printing
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Copying/printing
1700 off shift
Entered Records: 3621 - 3634

07/11/07

1030 On site, *no key*
1100 *no key*
1130 *no key, went home*

07/12/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Billing Verify
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Billing Verify
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Billing Verify
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Billing Verify, envelope stuffing, sealing, stamping
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry, COPYING
1700 off shift
Entered Records: 3643 - 3670

07/13/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing, Berny gives up and leaves
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing, out of black ink, Data Entry
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing
1800 Ad lines, CSR, Editing/Printing
1900 off shift
Entered Records: 3673 - 3687

07/16/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Copying/Printing
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Copying/Printing
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1430 Lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1700 Ad lines, CSR
1800 Ad lines, Data Entry
1900 off shift, lock up
Entered Records: 3688 - 3718

07/17/07

1040 late, on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Computer repair
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Computer repair
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Computer repair
1430 lunch, ad lines, csr
1500 ad lines, csr, computer repair, data entry, printing
1600 ad lines, csr, computer repair
1700 off shift
Entered Records: 3719 - 3724

07/19/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1100 Ad lines, CSR, printing
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 off early, sick
Entered Records: 3725 - 3750

07/20/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup, printing
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Backup
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 off shift

07/23/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, Computer backup
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Upgrade
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Drivers
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Drivers
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1530 off early, sick.

07/24/07

1122 arrived late from dr. appointment, Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Data Entry
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Computer backup
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Computer WIPE, OS install
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Computer OS install, Restore Failure, original Backup Missing!!!!
1700 off shift
Entered Records: 3751 - 3758

07/27/07

1030 on shift, working on computers
1100 working on computers
1200 working on computers
1300 working on computers
1400 working on computers
1500 working on computers
1600 working on computers
1700 working on computers
1800 working on computers
1900 off shift

7/26/07

1030 on shift, working on computers
1100 working on computers
1200 working on computers
1300 working on computers
1400 working on computers
1430 lunch, working on computers
1500 working on computers
1600 working on computers
1700 off shift

07/27/07

1030 on shift, working on computers
1100 working on computers
1200 working on computers
1300 working on computers
1400 working on computers
1430 lunch
1500 working on computers
1600 working on computers
1700 working on computers
1800 working on computers
1900 off shift

07/30/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Working on Computer
1700 Meeting
1800 off shift

07/31/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1700 off shift

08/01/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Old Database Leads Renaming
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Research Barcode X
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Research Barcode X
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Card tearing
1700 off shift

08/02/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Scan/Copy
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Scan/Copy
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Scan
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Scan
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Scan
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Scan, rip cards
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Scan, rip cards
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Print, Server Backup before Wipe/Install
1700 off sift

08/03/07

1030 on shift, Ad Lines, CSR, Server backup continues
1100 Ad Lines, CSR, leads importing/printing
1200 Ad Lines, CSR, leads printing
1300 Ad Lines, CSR, leads printing
1400 Ad Lines, CSR, leads printing
1430 lunch, Ad Lines, CSR
1500 Ad Lines, CSR, envelope printing, stuffing
1600 Ad Lines, CSR, envelope printing, stuffing
1700 off shift

08/06/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Printing Envelopes
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Envelopes
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Envelopes
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Envelopes
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1700 off shift

08/07/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Printing Cards, backup server with secondary method
1700 off shift

08/08/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Wiped Server HD, running Quick Restore
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Restore process started [windows will not validate]
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Restore process completed, updates and installs
1700 off shift

08/09/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server restore, again
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server updates/installs
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server updates/installs
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server updates/installs
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server updates/installs
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server updates/installs
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying, Server updates/installs
1700 off shift

08/10/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1100 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1200 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1300 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1400 Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Printing/copying
1500 Ad lines, CSR, Computer repair, networking
1600 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Repair, networking
1700 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Repair, networking
1800 Ad lines, CSR, Computer Repair, networking
1900 off shift

08/13/07

1030 On shift, Ad lines, CSR, printing/copying
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 off shift

08/14/04

1030 waited
1100 waited
1200 waited, on shift, Ad lines, CSR, Printing
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 off shift

08/15/07

1030 on shift, Ad lines, CSR
1100 Ad lines, CSR
1200 Ad lines, CSR
1300 Ad lines, CSR
1400 Ad lines, CSR
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR
1500 Ad lines, CSR
1600 Ad lines, CSR
1700 off shift

08/16/07

1030 on shift, CSR, LeadSource renames in Old DB Salvaged
1100 CSR, Barcode X
1200 CSR, Barcode X
1300 CSR, Barcode X
1400 CSR, Barcode X
1430 lunch, Ad lines, CSR, Barcode X
1500 CSR, Barcode X
1600 CSR, Barcode X
1700 off shift

08/17/07

1030 On shift, CSR, Barcode X, Copy/Print
1100 CSR, Copy/Print
1200 CSR,
1300 CSR,
1400 CSR,
1430 Lunch, CSR,
1500 CSR,
1600 CSR,
1700 off shift

08/24/07

1030 On shift, CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1100 CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1200 CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1300 CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1400 CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1430 lunch, CSR, Computer troubleshoot
1500 CSR, Computer troubleshoot, Leads
1600 CSR, Computer troubleshoot, Leads
1700 CSR, Computer troubleshoot, Leads
1800 CSR, Computer troubleshoot, Leads
1900 off shift

08/27/07

1030 on shift, Computer Troubleshoot
1100 Computer Troubleshoot
1200 Computer Troubleshoot
1300 Computer Troubleshoot
1400 Computer Troubleshoot
1430 lunch, Computer Troubleshoot
1500 Computer Troubleshoot
1600 Computer Troubleshoot
1700 Computer Troubleshoot, Print Leads
1800 off shift

08/28/07

1030 on shift
1130 off injured, too much pain

09/03/07

1030 on shift
1100
1200
1300
1400
1430 off shift

09/04/07

1030 on shift
1100
1200
1300
1400
1430 lunch
1500
1600
1700 off shift

09/05/07

1030 on shift
1100
1200
1300
1400
1430 lunch
1500
1600
1700 off shift

09/06/07

1030 on shift
1100
1200
1300
1400
1430 lunch
1500
1600
1700 off shift

09/07/07

1030 on shift
1100
1200
1300
1400
1430 lunch
1500
1600
1700
1800
1900 off shift

09/10/07

1030 on shift
1100
1200
1300
1400
1430 lunch
1500
1600
1700
1800
1900 off shift

Pay rate 8.5/hr

Hours

05/23/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
05/24/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
05/25/07 1030-1430,1500-1730 6.5

05/28/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8
05/29/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
05/30/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
05/31/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/01/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7

06/04/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8
06/05/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/06/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8
06/07/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/08/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

06/11/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/12/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/13/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/14/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/15/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

06/18/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/19/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/20/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
06/21/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/22/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7

06/11/07 - 06/22/07 70 * 8.5 = 595

06/25/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/26/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/27/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
06/28/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
06/29/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

07/02/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
07/03/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
*07/04/07* day off
07/05/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
07/06/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6

06/25/07 - 07/06/07 60 * 8 = 480

07/09/07 1030-1430,1500-1730 6.5
07/10/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
07/11/07 1030-1130 1
07/12/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
07/13/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

07/16/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8
07/17/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
07/18/07 1100-1200 1 late, sick
07/19/07 1030-1430 4 sick
07/20/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6

07/09/07 - 07/20/07 52.5 * 8.5 = 446.25

07/23/07 1030-1530 5 sick
07/24/07 1130-1700 5.5
07/25/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8
07/26/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
07/27/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

07/30/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
07/31/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/01/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/02/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/03/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6

07/23/07 - 08/03/07 63.5 * 8.5 = 539.75

08/06/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/07/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/08/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/09/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/10/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

08/13/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/14/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/15/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/16/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
08/17/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6

08/06/07 - 08/17/07 62 * 8.5 = 527

08/20/07 off, sick/injured
08/21/07 off, sick/injured
08/22/07 off, sick/injured
08/23/07 off, sick/injured
08/24/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

08/27/07 1030-1430,1500-1800 7
08/28/07 1030-1130, sick/injured 1
08/29/07 off, sick/injured
08/30/07 off, sick/injured
08/31/07 off, sick/injured

08/20/07 - 08/31/07 16 * 8.5 = 136

09/03/07 1030-1430 4
09/04/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
09/05/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
09/06/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6
09/07/07 1030-1430,1500-1900 8

09/10/07 1030-1430,1500-1700 6 QUIT

Final Hours 09/03/07 - 09/10/07 36 * 8.5 = 306

136+30+306=472 Final Pay Owed

2007-08-10T18:20:00.001-07:00

I thought I'd clear up a couple things, just in case. I am male, not female, no matter who says otherwise. And I got my name, Krepta, from my favorite character in my favorite childhood sci-fi series called "My Teacher is an Alien" by Bruce Coville. I loved that series so much that I took the Alien-given name of Krepta, which means Child of the Stars. I'm a space case, so, it makes sense. :)

I have never met another Krepta face to face, but I've heard there are others. Grrrr. hehehe. If you see me around, be gentle, I bruise easily. I love chatting on Cyan Chat the address is http://cho.cyan.com/chat for the Official site of Cho, but if you want you can also use IRC to get to Cho at irc://chat.mystlore.com/mystchat and there are plenty of people having fun there, so come join in sometime. :)

Number System Conversion

2007-08-10T15:05:00.000-07:00

I can't post directly into my blog, I don't think it would fit, but I'll post a link to my Number System Conversion Spreadsheet I created using OpenOffice.org Calc and Google Docs. :)

http://spreadsheets.google.com/pub?key=pgUvTkF6uroSnwjA9zgvwUw&output=html

2007-08-10T15:03:00.000-07:00

Network Cable Cheat Sheet

CrossOver:
OrangeWhite GreenWhite
Orange Green
GreenWhite OrangeWhite
Blue Blue
BlueWhite BlueWhite
Green Orange
BrownWhite BrownWhite
Brown Brown
1 3
2 6
3 1
4 4
5 5
6 2
7 7
8 8

StraightThrough:
OrangeWhite OrangeWhite
Orange Orange
GreenWhite GreenWhite
Blue Blue
BlueWhite BlueWhite
Green Green
BrownWhite BrownWhite
Brown Brown
1 1
2 2
3 3
4 4
5 5
6 6
7 7
8 8

Network cable line extension causes a flip, or change as follows:

CrossOver + CrossOver = StraightThrough
StraightThrough + StraightThrough = StraightThrough
StraightThrough + CrossOver = CrossOver

Shorah b'shehm

2007-08-10T13:26:00.001-07:00

Hello, this is my first blog entry. I apparently complain too much about my life and the things going on. *sigh* I wish I could just open up and explain myself, share myself, without fear of what others think about it. Anyway, I haven't been blogging before, just sending messages on Forums.

My real name is Aaron P. Ingebrigtsen, I live in Mesa, Arizona, which is part of the Phoenix Metro Area. There, you can hunt me down and say Hi sometime if your that crazy about me. :) I am 30 years old, a virgin, living with my Dad. I want to try to stay positive. :)

I have a Job, YAY, which is always a good thing, because it brings in money. If the money vanishes, well, then the job no longer matters to me. Not that my only goal in life is to make money, far from it, I wish money weren't an issue, but it is, I'm constantly worried about whether I can afford my bills. I have debts too. I suppose that makes me like most people.

I was educated at High Tech Institute of Phoenix where I was the TOP student in my class, earning Honors for Perfect Attendance and Perfect 4.0 Grades in the Computer Networking and Information Technology course. That was a huge deal to me, being able to Graduate with my class, wear a cap and gown, and be Honored too. I had never experienced any of that before. It was the happiest time of my life! So, I'm a computer and networking geek, but there are a lot of things I don't know and don't understand. I am NOT a Programmer, don't even try asking me to code something in Java or C#, I'll just slap you silly with a large wet trout.

I love creating things, writing is enjoyable, although I'm not really trained to be a writer. I flunked English 101. I love math, or at least I used to, but I am regaining my love of math. I flunked Algebra 101 too. I have a long way to go before I reach genius level. Hahaha.

Although I have above average IQ, I am very very ignorant of real world things, and struggle to understand concepts that others find easy. I have ADD, which means two things, one I am Always distracted, by default, and two I am able to multitask pretty well. I can't do 15 things at once, and the more things I try to juggle the less attention each process gets in my brain, but multitasking is easier for me than concentrating on just one thing. That's nearly impossible. I have learned that setting up my environment in a particular way really helps me to concentrate on the ONE thing I'm supposed to be doing, which means I have small side things going so I can choose to devote tiny bits of attention to those, while devoting most of my attention to that ONE thing. If I don't do that, my brain goes into black out mode.

When I go into black out mode that means a form of sensory deprivation, my brain turns off outside information from my senses and starts going nuts. Some people call it daydreaming, but it's more than wishful thinking or whatever, it's something I have little control over. It takes something like a loud noise to bring me out of it. The best I can do is prepare myself somehow to prevent the blackouts. Once they happen, I have no way to force myself back to full awareness. That's the way it is for me. Believe it, or not.

My brain has an automatic on/off switch on my attention span. If the information coming in from my senses is Interesting Enough, it gets my attention until something More Interesting presents itself. As soon as the information from my senses drops below a certain Interest level, my attention is entirely turned OFF, black out mode. I need to keep my senses stimulated, whether with music, or blinking lights, or SOMETHING, to keep my brain from just shutting down all outside information processing.

I have extremely vivid dreams, full surround sound, 3D color, full sensory information. Pinching myself does actually hurt in my dreams, it's the truth. My dreams seem as real to me, when I'm dreaming, as this world seems when I'm awake. It's only when I wake up that the dream starts to seem less real. Which means I can have really awesome dreams, or really terrifying nightmares. Maybe that's the way it is for most people.

I am obsessed with all things having to do with Cyan Worlds, and the games and books and everything else having to do with MYST that they created. I love The D'ni Numbering System, for instance, totally awesome.

Well, guess that's the end of my first message, Shorah b'shehm, which means Peace to you. :)